Monday, January 19, 2009

Don't ask

Funny. So many months passed by and suddenly I have this feeling of asking the ultimate question. “Have you ever cheated on me?”

I asked that to someone who once had the impact and connection with me – but it’s sad to only find out that the answer was YES.

How are you suppose to react to that? I know I shouldn’t be asking this question in the first place. But I’ve already asked and it’s already answered.

Next month – it would be our 1 year anniversary (if we didn't break up). Memory brings me back to the good old days – where he just know what I want to say ... or we said the same thing the same time.... I remembered whenever he called me I would be so happy. It's weird cause we've already moved on with life and then only to find out recently...

He feels guilty.
I feel sad.

Sometimes, it’s best to not ask. ^_^

9 comments:

Anonymous said...

I guess the best response to the whole situation now is this...

He should sincerely say sorry and repent, ask for your forgiveness.

You sincerely accept his apologize, and forgive him.

Both move on. Let the past be past. Treasure the present and together work for a better tomorrow.

Rick Taylor said...

I agree with "someone who cares". Move on.

There is a great saying, "Only ask questions to which you are absolutely sure you will accept the answer".

Jolene Loh said...

it is indeed interesting that I was totally fine with it.. until I listen to the emo songs. *rolled eyes* -- god knows..

but yes. I actually forgave him. He told me this.. "I was having a hard time deciding whether to tell you or not.. coz then If I did tell you means you will not trust me..." WHY does he tell me that? It's not like we are going back together...

lil confused one.

jack said...

ai~ya.. u~ar....
*smack-jLo-forehead*
let pass be pass..
y bring back..
em not against knowing the truth.. but than if knowing the truth will do u good(which most cases don't)..

its like if u got a cut wound u bandage it.. let it heal.. not picking on it.. u dint just slow the healing process but made the scar bigger.. :p

Jolene Loh said...

i totally agree with the wound n scar thing... absolutely right!

HOWEVER... why am I feeling sad?

That's the bigger question that I have .. Does it mean I still love him inside?

I duno :(

jack said...

oooh... ic... feeling sad~hor... deep down inside there is still feeling... (~.~)...
*shoulder*

Anonymous said...

my dear i think u r just dissapointed after so much effort you have put into the relationship..... so pls be strong ok?

Jolene Loh said...

ms. watever.. it's funny how reactive you are to all the blog i write about this guy that i didn't even indicate WHO. i'm sorry that it hurt you deep inside ... think about it... maybe YOU are just fucked up jealous about him having feelings for everyone else but you. All these years that you think you have this connection between him and you.

but neways.. you are free to say watever you want ... but i don't think it's nice for you to say such things about ppl you don't even know.

But I really wish you will find that someone that loves you and for once in a lifetime - APPRECIATE him. Stop pushing him away from you. So he can stop complaining to everyone else about you.

Good luck ms. watever.

Cris Solis Chen said...

its funny you should ask that question. I've always wonder too, but what I don't know doesn't hurt me and what I know does. So even I do have that nudge feeling or my head is just playing a game on me. I rather not ask.

Life's too short to be depress. It should always be a forward momentum not stand still. All the best.