Saturday, January 24, 2009

5 years ago

As I brushed my teeth, thinking about my last reply to Ms. Watever on my other blog entry...

I've changed.

5 years ago..
1. I don't curse at people
2. I have more patience
3. I am more innocent
4. I am more caring
5. I have more confidence
6. I am more active (living the day as though there's no tomorrow)
7. I am more positive
8. I can remember more things (recently lost my handphone.. and found it in my laptop bag - sillyme)
9. I am more gullible
10. I am thinner!

lol.. thinking to myself that did I change for better? or worst?

I think there's no better or worst... past is past... all my experience, friends & family, environment has taught me well. I might be more of a bitch now but deep down inside-- I am still Jolene. Yes - I have changed, that's to protect myself better and stand up for myself ^_^

So anyway- here's a toast to "Good year... Good health... Good wealth! Happy Chinese New Year!
Watch this video .. it made my day! Hope you guys enjoy ~~~

Monday, January 19, 2009

Don't ask

Funny. So many months passed by and suddenly I have this feeling of asking the ultimate question. “Have you ever cheated on me?”

I asked that to someone who once had the impact and connection with me – but it’s sad to only find out that the answer was YES.

How are you suppose to react to that? I know I shouldn’t be asking this question in the first place. But I’ve already asked and it’s already answered.

Next month – it would be our 1 year anniversary (if we didn't break up). Memory brings me back to the good old days – where he just know what I want to say ... or we said the same thing the same time.... I remembered whenever he called me I would be so happy. It's weird cause we've already moved on with life and then only to find out recently...

He feels guilty.
I feel sad.

Sometimes, it’s best to not ask. ^_^