To Jolene From Chai Chai

Dear Jolene,

I thank you for everything there is for me, you took me from a cage where I was going to be put to sleep when I was just about 1 year old. I still remember your foot - the best part that I very love to manja on.

I remembered our 1st Christmas together - I still remember how I slept on your hair to feel safe sleeping at night. I was so scared of the scary sounds in the air - which you all call it Fireworks. I remember you even held me tight asking me to see it. That was scary - I thought the whole world was falling down.

I remember you bought me a lion - and say - this will be your best friend and he will protect me at night so I can sleep. I also remember those time where I would try to wake you up to work - you're a tough one to wake up. I've tried licking your face - and then you had sheet to cover. I've tried slapping your glasses to you - you hid them away. I've tried biting your toes to wake you up - you tucked it the sheets. I've tried tapping on your laptop so it would make sound like an alarm - you muted the sound. I've tried scrapping off your keyboards - I manage to take off "C", "3" and "P" - (no it's not a mystery) - but you close the lid off. But I seriously hope you can wake up by yourself now. :)

The truth is - I've watched you grown up in all these 6 years... I have became your safety zone - where you know when you're sad - I am always here for you. I would just rest my head on your hand - and I can see your little smile underneath all the sadness and tears. You have become a little like a "MAMA" to me. Your aunt noticed that I don't "MEOW" - but it's more like I'm calling you "MAaaa" funny huh. I wish I could talk more - but I can only blog.

We've had our moments - where you were soo angry at me - when I accidently poo'ed on your bed. You went away sooo long - and I missed you - and then I felt like I needed to poo... (I know I know - no excuse). Every time you hit my butt - it felt good - coz it proves you still care about me.

I love it when you are working - I jump on this space between your face and the laptop so you could kiss me gently on my head. That's the best part that I will always remember - it almost felt like I need that EVERYDAY.

Mama, please know that I love you and I will always love you no matter where I am.


In loving memories, signing off for good ...
Yours Truly,
Chai Chai

030111. 9.00am.
KL: The loving cat Chai Chai, whose body was found at the floor with extreme head injuries, slipped off from 6th Floor - passed away on the hand of the owner while driving to the nearest Clinic on Jan 03, 2011. The family will miss him dearly - we will all pray for him - Rest In Peace Chai Chai.

I can't make you love me

turn down the lights
turn down the bed
turn down these voices
inside my head
lay down with me
tell me no lies
just hold me close
don't patronize
don't patronize me

i can't make you love me if you don't
you can't make your heart feel
somethin' it wont
here in the dark,in these final hours
i will lay down my heart
and feel the power if you wont
no you wont
cuz i can't make you love me
if you don't

i'll close my eyes
then i wont see
the love you dont feel
when your holdin' me
morning will come
and i'll do whats right
just give me till then
to give up this fight
and i will give up this fight

HE is just NOT into you!

It's often that human beings are just not reading each other right.. It's also often that human beings are just different and the perception of things are just simply ... DIFFERENT.

I've derived a couple of "insights" according to myself to show female thought process of several situations... (well.. I'm not speaking on behalf of all female population here.. let me just quote that).

1) Situation : You guys seem to get along pretty well.. and you are just waiting for the next date. But.. HE DOESN'T CALL. What does that mean?

What a girl would do - is to make thousands and thousands of excuse to herself about him not calling. (Excuse Thought Process - ETP)
"He's probably busy with parents. He's probably working on a project that is very important. He's probably hanging out with friends.. His friend is probably in trouble and it's too complicated to even explain. He'll call when he's free."
2 days later...
"He's probably has another date to attend to.. He's travelling? Maybe I should just dial his number to see whether he's in town. But that's no good. That would make me look desperate. Need to have my "mojo". He'll call when it's the right time."
Saw him with another girl...
"She's probably his client.. quite hot though I must say. She is thinner than me.. She has nice hair. Let's just Facebook her and find out whether she's single or not. Hmm.. she has a lot of photos taken with him... They look good together. It's okay.. they are not together officially on facebook. He'll call me when he's heart broken."

ADVICE : HE is just NOT into you!

2) Situation : You went out couple of dates.. and it was good! Happy dates - good company. But you start to notice the pattern - that if you don't initiate the conversation.. he won't. But if you do - he continues to have a chat with you.

ETP : Wait. He connects with you when you talk to him - that's the point! Who cares about who initiate it first? He is TALKING to you isn't he? So what if we initiate the conversation MOST of the time.. er.. hmmm.. when is the last time he initiated? ... But he bought the dinner and drinks.. if he's not interested why would he waste his money? He told you that he thinks of you when he wakes up.... Think again.. it was you that initiated the question - Who did you think of when you wake up?

ADVICE : HE is just NOT into you!

3) Situation : You SMS and he doesn't reply. You are stuck in this fantasy world where the previous things that happened - stayed and you don't want to accept what's the REALITY.

ETP: "He told me he loves me.. He told me I was the woman that wants he wants to have his kids.. He told me he's not playing. He told me time is just not right... He wants to focus into achieving something else first before being with me. He said that he wants to bring me to a holiday and ask me to focus into that."

ADVICE : HE is just NOT into you ... ANYMORE.

Try to Remember

2 months passed so fast.. It almost seemed like it was yesterday since I tendered my resignation...

What's next? What's new?

Next - I'm heading off to concentrate things that I wanted to do more.. and when the right opportunity lands on my head.. let's GO!

New - you know how messy my love life is - can never get it right. -- wait. that's not new.
hmm... let me tell you a story.

Ever felt like when you lean on someone - it's feels just right?
How he holds you in the arm, how he smiles, how he looked at you - melts your heart.
The way he whispers into your ear - I Love You... gives you the butterfly in stomach.
Nothing else matters in this world - you want to be selfish.
Everything seems right but wrong at the same time?
Your feelings is like thin glass in which will break any minute any seconds.

Do you then put everything on top of the glass knowing that it's going to break?
Do you then put everything at the bottom of the glass to support it when it breaks?

Heart tells you that this is it...
Brain tells you STOP THIS NOW.

Can I flip the coin?

Love Artist

Couldn’t sleep. Closed eyes but mind just thinking of him. Think about the shoulder that was just comfortable. The perfect scent that keeps you safe. Almost felt the gentle kiss on your cheek. Open eyes. You’re still here. Alone.

I start thinking about the last relationship that I was happy with and enjoyed that feeling of love... it was when I was in the long-distance “pen-pal” relationship. That feeling – when you’re just shining even though you just had the worst day in the world. That certain feeling that warms you up at night knowing that you have someone who loves you and cares for you. SIGH. It’s just so funny.

I watched the movie – Ugly Truth today. Brilliant movie I think. Lust – blue balls last you for 3 hours? Love – hurts you for 3 years. People laughed at that thought. It’s true though. It’s tough to draw that line between ‘lust relationship’ and ‘love relationship’. Which makes you happy deep inside?

I realize I’m in this mode where I get all mushy and lovey to a guy that does not exist. Symptoms includes when you’re making excuses for the guy’s absence in your life. You painted this romantic scenery where he in fact brought you to a dumpster. You cherish his 5 minutes call even though it was you that SMS him in the first place. You paint this love story that you began. You’re so engross about making it the perfect love story that you’re hidden between the lines of your own love story.

I realize that I was also happy when I was in the relationship with Mr. J – he was not physically here, but I painted that PERFECT boyfriend image in my head. Not saying he’s not good. But I want to point out that I was in fact happy painting that picture. Weird.

Just Say No!

In many instances, we often get flattered whenever we have guys going after ourselves. Many of us get more than 1 guy going after ourselves and we feel like it’s a trophy. Just like how guys would feel whenever they get a trophy girlfriend. It’s funny because when season is bad – meaning there’s no one going after yourself – you will find that you tend to appreciate the guy who is going after you. However, if there were more than 1 guy going after you – then you would weigh on which guy is better and you’ll tend to treat the one that you prefer better.

It’s also funny that sometimes, people play the “hard to get” game, a game in which you will find that the more she says no – the more fun it gets. Most guys like it – that it gives them that extra challenge to get the dream girl. Sometimes, it’s not “hard to get” – it’s just the girl doesn’t like you – ever thought of that? I bet! Then, the question is – how do you know it’s sincerely “NO THANKS” and not “Hard to get”?

Instances:

Even though she doesn’t have a boyfriend – it does not mean she doesn’t have a sex life... When she’s talking to you about her sex life, please do ask her – “when was this?” just so you are clear she’s not hinting to you about her CURRENT sex life.

I used to be super good at saying no – there’s this guy who was the hero to everything. I remember him as the sweetest guy on earth. He’s the bad boy in college, super naughty, doesn’t like studying but loves gaming. He would buy me stuff all the time – bought me 2 strips of Vitagen (only white) as that’s my favourite drink in the world. He would buy me strawberries all the time, take taxi to fetch me everywhere. Flowers, teddy bear – BIG hug ones... But in the end I said NO. He said “gal, when you have a boyfriend, please tell me.” I replied “huh? but why?” He said “I want to ask him how he got you – I’ve tried every single way possible...”

I smile thinking about him – wonder where he is now... That’s not the story. How do you say NO to certain individual who is just so persistent and would not take NO for an answer?

Tickles

A wise man shared with me this concept of “Tickles” – I would like to write an entry about this.

You lie awake looking at your partner sleeping, light of sunray suddenly shines over her face, the woman you love, the woman you share all the dirty secrets with, the woman who makes sure that your fever goes down by driving out to buy packets of ice in the middle of the night. Often or not, we always describe her as THE ONE, she who knows your favourite dish, she who knows your favourite TV programme, the one that leaves you alone when the Game is on. She understands you...

You suddenly remembers this flash back of the time where you look forward to make her smile, that very day where you had to be on your feet because if you don’t do anything at all, she’s going to be running off with a JERK. You cannot let that happen, you want to make her happy and have children with her, you wish for it that one day you lie down starring at her beauty as she falls asleep like this very moment.

Often, there’s HONEYMOON period, and there’s GET-TO-KNOW-EACH-OTHER-BETTER period, and then there’s GET OFF ME period. What about the SHE TICKLES MY BRAIN period? We used to think so much before doing anything, almost like playing chess. Thinking a few steps before to get the result that was predicted. Wise man said that the only way to happiness is to find that one person that Tickles you every day until he/she passes away. If you don’t find, you wouldn’t understand the meaning of BEING ALIVE.

K la – I find a vibrator... just change battery only. ^_^

Valentine's Day

For the previous Valentine's Day in my life... it's always so exciting, so romantic, sweet.

This year.

I spent the morning preparing for my Love Hunt - in which we've pulled together in 2 weeks. I'll be honest here - it wasn't great.. compared to my last event (Massive Worldwide 2008).

Thereafter... it was a simple dinner with Mom & Brother then i had a date with my beloved BED.

Although it wasn't a fancy flower, gift, romantic dinner that cost a bomb... It was actually the best Valentine's Day I had. Doing the things I LOVE (events), spending good quality time with mom & bro discussing about relationship (my bro has a gf... !!). I had a good Valentine's Day.. I know I certainly enjoyed my beauty sleep.

I guess.. I'm growing to like my life right now. No Love - All Work. ^_^

Don't ask

Funny. So many months passed by and suddenly I have this feeling of asking the ultimate question. “Have you ever cheated on me?”

I asked that to someone who once had the impact and connection with me – but it’s sad to only find out that the answer was YES.

How are you suppose to react to that? I know I shouldn’t be asking this question in the first place. But I’ve already asked and it’s already answered.

Next month – it would be our 1 year anniversary (if we didn't break up). Memory brings me back to the good old days – where he just know what I want to say ... or we said the same thing the same time.... I remembered whenever he called me I would be so happy. It's weird cause we've already moved on with life and then only to find out recently...

He feels guilty.
I feel sad.

Sometimes, it’s best to not ask. ^_^

will you marry me?

Well lotssssssssssss to update!

1) ME all good now - back to usual self (no more vertigo *fingers crossed*

2) I am organizing a RAVE party end of this year - EXTremely happy as it's CONFIRM ONZ!

3) Getting lots of praises from guys :)

After my incident - like I mentioned.... I'm back to Night life ~ My merdeka was so awesome that I drank 12 hours long... ~~~ and I finally get to meet Michelle (Alicia's Sister)!! She's so cute and wonderful - single too!! I also get to witness Alicia's loss of virginity to TATOO~~ but it's worth all the pain. And how can we not forget the most important thing in the world - my BOSS's Birthday...

He is allergic to Chocolate, cheeze, anything with Milk... So end up buying a jelly cake - which turn out to be yumzz too!

Happy Birthday Boss !!
Yes. He is wearing a Tiara + Sash. And he did a crazy thing too!
After blowing off the candles... My boss asked "Do you guys want to know what I wished for?"

Some of us said "NO~ then it won't come true"

He said.. "What I wish for my birthday is.... *reaches to his pocket* for my gf to marry me... " the rest was in the video I took (which was soooo dark!!!)

Congrats boss ~~~ ^_^

what now?

OK OK. This is definitely what I’m going to say... “You know that we might not be right for each other, but I wanted to let you know that I ......” Damnit! That’s too emo. OK OK try this version... “Look, I like you, You like me ....” NO NO... that’s too macho-iee..

Why do we always end up this way? We are confident and stable in usual state; however, whenever we are in front of someone special – the dang-est thing will always happened. I had a few case myself, I was alone with this guy on a beach (a couple of years ago...), it was going to be a romantic kiss... until I RAN off... haha.. I RAN (literally ran...) Poor dude, he must have felt bad or something.

I’ve seen so many dramas in which when the guy confess – he always screw it up... but how do you pick up from there? How do you change the mindset in which you ‘accidently’ placed on the special someone.

Let’s say – you find this incredible funny guy, cute, adorable, smart and he’s quite good looking ~ someone potential. And let’s say you messed it up accidently and it's something you can't take it back. Now, he think of you differently ... like you are not serious about relationship...

Do you...

1. Call him up an explain to him "actually... i'm not like that... "
2. Fuck it. NEXT~~~

Guys... please do tell your opinion.
This is very useful for us girls... (not only me ;p)

Good luck ~~ my friend ~~~

whack him up...

What’s worst?

Situation Shit:
You are your boyfriend’s BEST friend. The only one he opens up to, the only one he trust to talk about almost everything with. Then CHENG CHENG CHENG~~ he tells you the truth – he still loves his ex and then obviously – broke it up with you. But because you guys started out as friends, and he has no one else to talk to except for you. YOU stupidly listen to the man you love – talk about another woman that he loves. Pretends to be his friend, listen to him, and then cry yourself on a pillow.... SHIT!

Situation Ass:
You and your boyfriend broke up clean – no argument and absolutely the most decent way – adults talking – and understanding that Long Distance won’t work. Then CHENG CHENG CHENG ~~ he tells the whole world that he obviously in denial about the feelings he have for his ex. *NEW : he has a new gf* What an ASS!

Situation Holy Moly:
You and your partner just started but haven’t got together officially... Your partner had a date, and then they got drunk... and they left the club scene to hotel... @_@... You know which hotel room he lives in. You stand in front of the door ... noticed – DO NOT DISTURB sign is on. You hear sounds of girl moaning. Tears rolled out from your eyes. Holy Moly!

Situation WTF:
You did some nice things for your partner – all sweet and really out of the way things... things that you normally wouldn’t do – but because you love that person, you would go the extra mile to make things happen. He tells you “aww.. it’s so sweet of you to do that... really ~ appreciate it a lot” ... turns around and tells his best friend “that’s so awkward!”. WTF!

A lot of us would think that in some situation – we’d rather not know about stuff...
HEAR no EVIL ... so we can still move on with life happily.

A lot of us would want to know the truth and move on ...
SEE no EVIL... so we know it hurts and won’t repeat it again.

A lot of us would rather not know .. but once find out – we will whack that person up!
SAY no EVIL... no need to say further... whack him up!!

ended with 2 clicks

mr J was my college mate, the guy who would never break a girl’s heart kinda guy... It is fate that brought us together, and in some ways, it is also fate that brought us apart. Am I sad about it ? Yes I am.

We all know how it started – it was over some fancy site call – FACEBOOK. ^_^ I took the initiative to message him our first message “Hi...” and up to now, we have over 400++ message exchanged, over RM2000 cost of phone bills expensed, many chats about things that doesn’t matter in life was spoken... it’s even rare to find someone who shares the same exact ideal dream date scenario as yourself, someone who can read your mind... (how likely can that be?)

As days passed... I still remember my friends say “it’s your honeymoon period.. that’s why it seems so good :)”. I guess they are right, I didn’t really care then as I was in this mode of happiness and proud to have him as my boyfriend (which doesn’t rarely happens). We both have our own set of life – He has his life over there – with his friends, games, books, vacuum cleaner, work, and his bob ;p n I have my set of life here – with family, friends, charity work, classes, work and I even ventured into his family :)

So many people asked – How’s LDR? Let me tell you that it is seriously HARD WORK. Communication is the key word. Because it’s our first LDR – endless effort of reassurance, my endless ngom ngom (complaining), our endless progressing bills and workload pushed the pressure tab ON. Well, I secretly planned a trip to Bali with him in fact :) and I was so BOBO (dumb)... that I accidently spilled to him that we are going to Bali ~ we both had a good laugh! We have so many of those moments which brought joys into our complicated life.

I have to admit that I didn’t really help by going all moody and emotional – during my period time – so that’s about 4 times in our relationship he has to go through with my insecurities session. The things is that we both understand this “period” PMS thingy and most of the time... the conversation just goes – “bb, you having period?.... ahh I thought so...”.

Sweet memories where he casually calls up and strums in the guitar ~ which melts my heart .. like TOTALLY! And I think I melt his heart cause I spent time with his family :) But the last month of our relationship was quite tough ~ Pressure tab ON, we stop calling each other so much because we can’t afford it, exams round the corner, events and due dates round the corner for me... and of course – how can we not forget – we have so many options in the ocean and friends to entertain and influence our thoughts.

Seriously, sometimes, we use our heart so much that we don’t see things clearly – I may be an emotional girl to begin with – emotionally dependent in fact, but I’m glad I’ve learnt to grow from this – I’m using my logical thinking to conclude this love story that we have. It was a sweet memory of over-the-phone, cyber relationship ~ You think we’ll still be friends?

.StrawberrymeowZ. says:
i'll do it now
.StrawberrymeowZ. says:
ready?
mr j says:
ok , readyyy
.StrawberrymeowZ. says:
mm that wasn't THAT hard
.StrawberrymeowZ. says:
lol
.StrawberrymeowZ. says:
just 2 clicks

In any case, anyone wants to go Bali with me? ^_^

there is a difference

been feeling down. no one to turn to. things not going your way... *cries*

as i travel this journey of my complex brain... i find that it is due to the difference of brain perception between a guy and a girl that ultimately causes misunderstanding... pls correct me if i'm wrong.

GIRL - "I'm feeling emo..."
GUY - Why now? Aiyarr.. whatever I say to calm her down also will go wrong one. Better to back off!!
Ultimately what girl want : Being there to listen, no need to say ANYTHING at all... just being there... a nice SMS "Hi Dear, Hope you are feeling better today... just want to say I'm here for you :)"

GUY - "This is not a good time"...
GIRL - What? How can that be? I'm your girl friend for gods sake! You have time to twitter other people... or take pictures to upload to flicker?
Ultimately what guy wants : I need space.

GIRL - "Why can't you understand me?"
GUY - I do, I know what you need.... you need space...
Ultimately what girl want : Agreeing with her to whatever she wants to say... YOU ARE RIGHT BABY!

GUY - "This isn't the first time that you're reaching out to me.."
GIRL - WHAT? does this mean that the 100th time - you're not gonna care?
Ultimately what guy want : A statement of anger at the moment... probably shouldn't have said that.

GIRL - "I understand you have exams... We shall talk after your exams..."
GUY - THANK GOD!
Ultimately what girl want : She still needs to talk about everything, she still need re-assurance, she still need your care, she still need your love...

Got anymore? do share...

why start something that cannot be finish?

Question: Ever felt like it's never enough... like when does it stop?


So - someone prompt me this question "Why start something that can't be finish?"
Like what on earth does that mean?


So I decide to write a blog about it...there can be a few meaning behind this...


Theory A : Jack of all traits, Master of none
Always love start something else while working on the other task - so much that currently, I have 4 decks presentation to work on concurrently - and instead of spending 100% effort to finish ONE, I spend 25% on each... but do I get it done? Kind of... not really... @_@

But.. I love the feeling of starting something new.... it's like a NEW motivation of making you think ^_^

Theory B : Patience
I was having a feedback session with my babe ...
J : "I start to notice my pattern on relationship - 3months is the "trial session" and then if it works - it goes on.. if not I choose to stay happy and move on..."
A : "But that's like running away from problems..."
J : @_@ oh shit... I AM...
A : "Uh-huh" *nods nods*

In a situation where you go through shitz but not knowing whether you would succeed or not ... I'd rather play to win and choose being happy...

Theory C : Re-assurance
Guess this applies to a lot people that I know... we all need re-assurance somehow, whether it was purchasing a black tube or a wedding gown. We always need someone to re-assure our decision. Caught this situation:

As Cherry looks herself in the mirror - she turns to her best friend Nancy and asked "... So how do I look?". For a moment, Nancy frowned and pushed her annoying hair to the side looked at Cherry as though she is checking the finished product before delivering to the Queen. Cherry rolled her eyes... "Come on babes.. it's not THAT hard to tell me what you think..." Nancy finally opened her mouth ...
N: "Ok.. here's what I think. The top pattern looked too flowery for you...
C: but... it's Summer!
N: "and.. the cutting of the skirt isn't right for you... it kinda makes you look ... er.. wide?...
C: I've lost 5kg... she doesn't know what she's talking about...
N: "Well.. Green looks good on you but I think the other top in Guess looked better :)"
C: Yes. Green looks nice on me... ok - I'll buy~~

Funny how we just WANT to hear things we WANT to hear...
As friends -- why bother telling the truth?

Seriously... My question back to you...
1) What is the definition of Finish?

no expectation vs disappointment

Have you ever been caught in a situation where you found yourself disappointed at something.... and just as when you could find the reason to blame... it was yourself?

Through experiences, I’ve started to have this theory about the correlation between expectation & disappointment.

Cherry is sad. She’s frustrated at this colleague of hers that just wouldn’t listen to her opinion and she’s having her PMS.
Double Trouble!

Cherry looked at the clock it’s 5 more minutes.. til 6pm! I SOOO need to get out of this office!...

At 6pm sharp, she leaves the office... and walk towards the car, as she walks – she finds herself scrolling down the phonebook of her phone to BABY.

She ask herself should I call him? ... mm.. Maybe he’s busy now... then she told herself well, if he really loves me... he would know how I feel now and he would call me after his work to ask how was my day.. then I can pour out my sorrows. Great plan!

Soon enough... 7pm pass by so fast... Cherry looks at her phone again... Network is working alright...

The phone rang... Cherry was so happy and quickly answered her phone... Hi babes! What you doing tonight?... It wasn’t BABY – It was her best friend – Kelly. Feeling a bit disappointed... Cherry answered nothing much... just nothing..

After dinner... she looked at the time again ... it’s 8.30pm ... Is he going to call? Why doesn’t he call or SMS?

The thing about this situation is that it’s so common for all of us – whether it’s baby... or hubby or darling or sweetie...

So, what if we don’t have expectation of the other party at all? Would we be happier? We get so excited when he/she does something when we not least expected...

BUT, are we suppose to have expectation at all?

John Legend - Someday

Just finished watching this movie ~ wow.. simply beautiful movie - and the lyrics are fantastic!

http://www.stlyrics.com/lyrics/augustrush/someday.htm
...
we’ll get older we’ll get over
we’ll live to see the day that I hope for
come back to me
I still believe that
we’ll get it right again
we’ll come back to life again
we won’t say another goodbye again
you’ll live forever with me
someday, someday
we’ll be together
someday, someday
...

twitched your heart

Well just finished watching the movie - What Happens in Vegas?

It was a fantastic movie... and there's so many parts that was generalizing how woman would react.... at the same time - i couldn't agree more ^_^

So I came up with 10 things that would twitched Ladies heart ~~ so boyz.. learn up!

@ no. 10..
He made a great impression to your boss during your company dinner

@ no. 9..
He surprise you home with your favorite home cooked meal with candles & your favorite songs & favorite wine.

@ no. 8..
He pretends not to listen to you while you talk about that dress you loved... then on your birthday - when you open the box.... it was that very dress in the right size.

@ no.7..
When you see your mom laughing with him...

@ no. 6..
He tells you that he's not showing up for your friend's gathering... and he showed up just when you look around - and everyone has a date... and he stops you from feeling lonely..

@ no. 5..
In cinema... it was the moment that you need re-assurance.... he leans over and gives you a kiss on your head...

@ no. 4..
The moment where you find urself smiling looking at him playing with kids...

@ no. 3..
He did something wrong.. and he walks over to you with 3 stalks of roses (without wrapping) and apologize... "Can I hug you?"... *heart melts*.... then to top it all - he whispers into your ear "Baby - I love you... a ... lottt..."

@ no. 2..
You came home tired like crazy... he warms up your clean towel & decorated the bathroom with your favorite scented candles.

@ no. 1..
While watching a beautiful scenery ... he hugs you from behind...

The trick is - never do them everyday :)

pressure = rain = against the flow..

Ok Ok. Everything will be okay.

That's the beginning of the chapters of very famous - Sophie Kinsella's series. My very first series book that I have all the collection :) and actually reading them.

I've read all already - now I'm back at the book of the sister :)

I think about meeting my Luke Brandon. Every gal have their fantasy dude.. I have a confession to make...

Long distance isn't easy ... Yes. yes. i know some of you would be shouting there "SEE? I told you so!" Firstly, I salute to all of you who are in long distance... wow!

Ok. Pressure? Yes. It's not exactly the simple thing "I love you"... what i'm building is a foundation - to be quite honest... I've not even held his hands @_@... (a lot of you would go "OHhh ohh~~") What I'm trying to say is that... maybe things would be different if we were next to each other... as much as the emotional / mental chemistry that we have.. Physical chemistry needs to be part of it. I guess these tough times are just bumps in every single relationship - well.. Jolene Loh - Buckle up! There would be more bumps than ever... (hello? 77 more days only)

You maybe laughing reading this... or saying "WHAT THE HELL IS SHE TALKING ABOUT?" or.. no time... this is tooo deep. THAT's how i feel... funny, confused, too deep in thought... is this what they say about love? mmm...... suddenly remembered what my fortune teller said "Go with the flow ~~ You always try to swim against the current all the time - that's why you find life HARD!"

Was reading my old blog entries... i find myself amazed with what i wrote.. haha guess this is the motto of the week "sunshine will come after the rain!"... go with the flow ~~~

Official Jason Mraz - I'm Yours video

This is my favorite song ... ahhh.. BALI~~~ 79 more days... i can't wait ^_^