Goodbye Malaysia, Hello Singapore (again).

Hey all,

It's been a while.. and yes indeed it was tragedy what happened to my beloved cat.
I still miss him EVERYDAY. pfft...

Well, loads have happened... changes in all areas... family, love, work.

Quick update on Family - we have our beloved Caden Lo joined our crazy family... he's soooo adorable - he's making his way to win everyone's heart... here's a picture of him:


Love - will update once it's confirmed. :)

Work - well.. as many of you have known.. I am leaving Msia (again) - yes.. I'm heading over to our neighboring country - Singapore! The land of the lions...

I am grateful for every single individual that has touched my life here in KL. It's been a rough, crazy, exciting journey for me since I've moved from Singapore. Indeed... I've survived through some crazy journey involving Exciting yet Dangerous moments of my life. There are soooo many people in which I would love to say "Thank you" so much to.

Family:
Bro's & Sis-in-law's - Thank you all for the lovely Sundays, it is the BEST way to spend Sundays - with 3 of us together - we talk crazy shit - and we laugh all our stress away. This is THE best medicine ever... and I will miss you all sooooo much - especially Sundays .. now it would be very lonely for me in Singapore. I promise to visit more often since it's so near. Once I've settled in, you are all welcome to come over here :)

Mom - Thank you so much for being a mother to me, being my best friend to me as well. You know I love you SOOO much! Yes, I know you would worry about me no matter how old I am. I will stay strong and healthy. (I'll try!) Don't miss me so much now - and please... go out and find yourself the MAN that you've always dreamed about. ^_^ Love you mom! Singapore is very near - and I know you would be moving over (soon I hope). It's your choice. :)

Colleagues:
Team Malaysia - I've said all my goodbyes (individually) to you all - but here is the summarized version - I LOVE YOU ALL no matter what! Stay strong and kick ass! Someday, our path would cross each other again... I'll miss each one of you - and it's only YOU all that makes this Team Malaysia AWESOME! I'll make Team Malaysia Proud :)

Awesome Friends:
Animal Club - Heya.. I'll be spending my last Saturday Night with you folks - and no matter what... we've grown up sooo much, I still hope that our friendship stays strong. I've missed our trips where we get lost and drunk for FUN. But hey, we're all adults now - some of us are.. ;p Will miss you all especially Sue Ling, Jarett, Bernard... :)

Lions Club - Har! I've been missing in action - I know.. and I do apologize... Great to see you guys finally active in Facebook ^_^ woot woot! Thanks so much for your constant understanding and love... Please do take care! Keep in Touch!

VVIP Chat - Hi guys, you are all my BFF's :) Thank you sooo much for the crazy support and love you've given to me since donkey years... (GIS?) Love you all soooo much! Nana/Mich - I will see you in SG more often ... Howie/Veron - I will miss you both very much - once I've settled in to SG and get my Mobile stuff fixed up - I should be having iPhone ... then pls add me on VVIP Chat. Thanks for everything - putting up with my endless love stories... no 1, 2, ....

MSFT Friends - I know I've lost touch with most of you... Know that I've thought about you folks a lot :) Thanks again for everything... keep in touch!!

MACHAs - (do I have to specify who you are?) hehe... EMO Boys... :) I love you all... (as friends hahaha)... anyways... thanks soooo much for the endless support and love that you've shown to me ^_^ you all soooo sayang me ... I won't forget you guys.. I would probably miss you guys most! Now, I have to find SG Machas - if not I tweet you all - will you all drive down to drink and sing K with me? Gonna miss you all.. and THANK U again.. for showing up during my Farewell... TQ *bow bow*

Working Friends - seriously, I really look at you all much more of Friends than anything else.. It's been great to know each one of you. Mark Darren Lee, Richie Khaw & DiGi Gang, Syahar, Annuar & MAS Gang, Kenneth Teh, Melissa Chan & CIMB Gang + Octo, Kenneth Wong & Celcom Gang, Spencer & AA Gang, Joanne Chen, Desmond Kiu, Eileen, Edmund & Group M Gang, THE ENTIRE Starcom, Yoges, Kit, Emily & Zenith Gang, Danny Chin, Karen Mak, Yuki, Raymond & OMG Gang, Darren Yuen & Carat Gang, Soon Liang & Vizeum Gang, Pavan, Neeraj, Ulas & UM Gang, Jordan & Media Mind Gang, Rene, Pete, & all my ex colleague in BDS ... and all those that I didn't mentioned (please forgive me as I'm in a lot of medication as I'm typing all these)... ok *phew* ... Thank you so much for everything you've done for me. You gave me an opportunity to be friends with you and I cherish it all the way... If you've not heard this - it's because of YOU all that I had this opportunity to do what I dreamed about. I owe you all for this. I sincerely THANK you all. ^_^ XIE XIE! I'm very sure our path would be crossing again.. Look forward to see you all soon! Thank you so much those of you who showed up on Wednesday Evening :)

Star-Hoo Drinking Friends - Ethan, Erng Mei, Ronnie, Melissa, Justin, Chieu Mei - I know we've only had a few times.. but I felt as though we've bonded sooo much from it.. Genting is definitely the crazy one.. :) not to mentioned the Digital Webby... I'm gonna miss you all soooo much - especially Ethan, Ah-Mei, Mel -- muackss... stay crazy and drunk okay? Visit me when you all can in Singapore okay? ^_^

BFF - Desmond Wong ... sigh... I'm gonna miss you lots too!!! Now, I have to look for a new singing partner - that has the AWESOME voice.. (Yes. you are better than the DJ Club ones - well some of them la) Thanks for everything... you're an awesome BFF to have! You've cheered me up soo many times .. (you don't even know it) hahahhaa.. stay awesome okay? I wish you good luck in everything!! Love, Work, Business, Kids (making more i hope) hahaha.. and err.. Get that SPORTS car! :) so when I call you to come SG - it would be just 1 hour away...

Friday Nighters - Stan & Minh - me gonna miss Friday nights man.... Finnegans and crazy debates you guys have.. Love Hate Relationship there... :) you dudes take care and I see you both soon in SG! Keep the love tight there yah? *hugssss*

BF - Jo Lee ~~~~~ I'm gonna miss you babe... Even though you're so busy now.. we still have Friday night. Oh wait. That's tomorrow... :) YAY! You go SG often okay... I don't care! You better remember my birthdays and our Anniversaries... and *thinks* what else? special occasion as well... if not.. I ANGRY BIRD U.

PAPA - Ker Loon ^_^ thanks for calling me last night.. it was very sweet!! I wish you were there too! Now you BIG SHOT already la.. knowing all these NEW Juicey Whisperers friends.. :) I am very sure our career path would run into each other one day... ONE DAY! :)

Other Awesome Friends:
Now Friends Not Colleagues - but upgraded now Client - Asha... :) *hugs* gonna miss you babes... I am missing Jennie already... but she's so far away.. no difference for me.. SG/KL. Asha - you take care of yourself yahh.. don't always "mommy" ppl around and don't think for yourself... ^_^ muackss... see you in Hanoi!

Alan Wong - hey dude.. you didn't show up for my farewell! Thank you so much for everything ^_^ You go to SG so often - so I will see you there then :) *hugs* I will remember your PROMISE.. haha.. ;p

Alicia, Natalie, CH, Michelle - harloo... thank you guys so much for everything.. it was very nice to have met up with you all again for karaoke! Not like we spend a lot of time together recently, but I do miss our crazy times before... :) Gonna miss Alicia most! ~~~~ ^_^ muacksss you all take care now.. when u're in SG - call me kay?

Crazy Ladies - Alice Chang & all - Thank you Alice for coming last night :) I hope we all keep in touch and well - you are all married.. so update me when BABY is OTW yahhh? hehehe Thanks Alice for the lovely gift :) I will wear this boarding the flight...


Chee Keen - Dudeeeee... we no fate la.. hehehe anyways.. thanks for being there for me (virtually) whenever I needed to "TYPE HARD!" hahha.. Thanks dear for everything... your constant updates to me helps me to know "I am not the only one" hahahahha :p Hope to see you soon! *hugs*

Well.. Thank you all so much for coming to my farewell on Wednesday - I can't believe I didn't take any picture... :(

Thank you all for the lovely pressies too --- *hugs n kisses*

This is from the CIMB Gang... Thanks Kenneth Teh, I am bringing this with me and putting on my desk - this Octo - my baby ~~~ :) I remembered working on this during MSN days.. ^_^
This is from my lovely replacement - Ai Ling - babe.. this is soo awesome! I absolutely love it! It's expensive.. it's from JUICY Couture! Love the box.. Will bring this with me as well :)

This is from Joanne Chen (Group M) - Thank you so much for this.. I took out all the boxes and put the 2 bottles straight into my toiletries.. will be using this for my bath in Singapore! :) Thanks again "Mom-in-law" :) take good care of my hubby yah? ^_^

I'm leaving on Sunday - so if you have time during lunch - come by at KLIA! I will officially depart at 2.30pm - meaning that i would check in 1pm. Farewell lunch at McDs @ 11.30am onwards... :)

Well that's all for now... Stay tune for SG Regional Role Updates...

Take Care now.. ^_^ Love you all!

Jolene

To Jolene From Chai Chai

Dear Jolene,

I thank you for everything there is for me, you took me from a cage where I was going to be put to sleep when I was just about 1 year old. I still remember your foot - the best part that I very love to manja on.

I remembered our 1st Christmas together - I still remember how I slept on your hair to feel safe sleeping at night. I was so scared of the scary sounds in the air - which you all call it Fireworks. I remember you even held me tight asking me to see it. That was scary - I thought the whole world was falling down.

I remember you bought me a lion - and say - this will be your best friend and he will protect me at night so I can sleep. I also remember those time where I would try to wake you up to work - you're a tough one to wake up. I've tried licking your face - and then you had sheet to cover. I've tried slapping your glasses to you - you hid them away. I've tried biting your toes to wake you up - you tucked it the sheets. I've tried tapping on your laptop so it would make sound like an alarm - you muted the sound. I've tried scrapping off your keyboards - I manage to take off "C", "3" and "P" - (no it's not a mystery) - but you close the lid off. But I seriously hope you can wake up by yourself now. :)

The truth is - I've watched you grown up in all these 6 years... I have became your safety zone - where you know when you're sad - I am always here for you. I would just rest my head on your hand - and I can see your little smile underneath all the sadness and tears. You have become a little like a "MAMA" to me. Your aunt noticed that I don't "MEOW" - but it's more like I'm calling you "MAaaa" funny huh. I wish I could talk more - but I can only blog.

We've had our moments - where you were soo angry at me - when I accidently poo'ed on your bed. You went away sooo long - and I missed you - and then I felt like I needed to poo... (I know I know - no excuse). Every time you hit my butt - it felt good - coz it proves you still care about me.

I love it when you are working - I jump on this space between your face and the laptop so you could kiss me gently on my head. That's the best part that I will always remember - it almost felt like I need that EVERYDAY.

Mama, please know that I love you and I will always love you no matter where I am.


In loving memories, signing off for good ...
Yours Truly,
Chai Chai

030111. 9.00am.
KL: The loving cat Chai Chai, whose body was found at the floor with extreme head injuries, slipped off from 6th Floor - passed away on the hand of the owner while driving to the nearest Clinic on Jan 03, 2011. The family will miss him dearly - we will all pray for him - Rest In Peace Chai Chai.

Ending 2010. Starting 2011

I’m glad that 2010 is going to end soon – can’t wait to 2011. It’s gonna be great!

2010 has been great year for me - it's been up and down, no dull moments. Family is great, my elder brother had our first ever generation of Lo's - he's adorable. He's now on my phone wallpaper to make me smile. My younger brother has gone off to college, and living the TEENAGE dream - has a beautiful girlfriend and so loving. Mom is great - she's so independent now - I am so proud of her. As for Chai Chai - the man of my life - he's still adorable and cute in his very own way.

Work's been great - closed a few big deals - got to see how politics work in a big company. Career path is on track - we've got a great leader who inspires me. I love that.

Love - it's just so messy - it's hard to understand. So many times - I felt sooo lost, felt like a hypocrite, felt like a slut, every single feeling there is - I felt it. But you know what? It made me stronger and more matured. It has built me up to be like a robot - I feel like I could never love again. Am I wrong to say that I don't believe in love? Maybe the time is not right, maybe I've not met the right guy. So many excuses were put out there for me to feel better. On this note - I am thankful for all my friends who are always there for me. Friends who laugh with me on my ugly side, friends who hugs me when I needed it.

People, I will love again one day - trust me - and when that day comes, it is Love, Faith and Hope that I would be thankful for. Without my friends and family - there will not even be the 3 elements that I could hold onto. To everyone who has touched my life in every different way - from the bottom of my heart - Thank You. Thank you soo much for loving me.

Happy New Year!

With lots n lots of love,

Jolene :)

Trip to Bangkok

It's been a while since I last blogged about my trips.

It was a very last minute planned trip to BKK, however, I enjoyed every last bit to it. The country is just simply refreshing and I had soo much fun!

I could actually imagine myself living here. Having my weekends going to Platinum Mall - strolling for new outfits every week. Going for a full body massage for only 250Baht to de-stress. Eating authentic Thai food every weekend. I COULD live here!

Seriously, you need to try this restaurant when you go to Bangkok! This is THE BEST of the BEST Thai food you'll ever tasted!

Ruen Mallika - Awesome Thai Cuisine!

This is salted egg - squid.. nice appetizer :)

Famous Pad Thai!

Duck Curry - wah.. the best!

Romantic Settings... Indoor and Outdoor

Doesn't this look like Dicks coming out from the ground?

The trip was 60% shopping, 30% food and 10% sleep - it was just simply amazing!

Coming up next - Hen's Night... interestingly enRICHing.

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Hey all, just in case you were wondering how I was… I’m absolutely doing fine.

It’s been few months … I don’t know how to use her new laptop. Took me a while to learn how to unlock her password.

I noticed I came into her life for about 6 years… seeing her through ups and downs makes me understand her a whole load better.

She’s changed a lot. She used to cry a lot about her love life – now she just talks about it – tears a little bit.

I don’t understand how is it that she says she’s only successful at work and she just sucks at love.

Love is something that falls into the place – you don’t really get to control it. Then again – I’m no one to be commenting on it.

She said recently she’s been seeing people through all walks of life. She says she’s no longer taking the chance like how she used to.

She doesn’t party anymore, she goes out for business dealings, she goes to the gym. How on earth is she suppose to meet “someone”?

It’s funny to see she’s changed her lifestyle – she used to go out a lot until middle of the night. Now, she’s home by 2am.

She spends more time with me – loving me and bathing me. It’s great! But I want her to be happy too!

Few weeks ago – I could sense she was happy. Something happened.. she’s not saying anything at this point of time.

Let’s find out…

xoxo..

Chai Chai

I can't make you love me

turn down the lights
turn down the bed
turn down these voices
inside my head
lay down with me
tell me no lies
just hold me close
don't patronize
don't patronize me

i can't make you love me if you don't
you can't make your heart feel
somethin' it wont
here in the dark,in these final hours
i will lay down my heart
and feel the power if you wont
no you wont
cuz i can't make you love me
if you don't

i'll close my eyes
then i wont see
the love you dont feel
when your holdin' me
morning will come
and i'll do whats right
just give me till then
to give up this fight
and i will give up this fight

HE is just NOT into you!

It's often that human beings are just not reading each other right.. It's also often that human beings are just different and the perception of things are just simply ... DIFFERENT.

I've derived a couple of "insights" according to myself to show female thought process of several situations... (well.. I'm not speaking on behalf of all female population here.. let me just quote that).

1) Situation : You guys seem to get along pretty well.. and you are just waiting for the next date. But.. HE DOESN'T CALL. What does that mean?

What a girl would do - is to make thousands and thousands of excuse to herself about him not calling. (Excuse Thought Process - ETP)
"He's probably busy with parents. He's probably working on a project that is very important. He's probably hanging out with friends.. His friend is probably in trouble and it's too complicated to even explain. He'll call when he's free."
2 days later...
"He's probably has another date to attend to.. He's travelling? Maybe I should just dial his number to see whether he's in town. But that's no good. That would make me look desperate. Need to have my "mojo". He'll call when it's the right time."
Saw him with another girl...
"She's probably his client.. quite hot though I must say. She is thinner than me.. She has nice hair. Let's just Facebook her and find out whether she's single or not. Hmm.. she has a lot of photos taken with him... They look good together. It's okay.. they are not together officially on facebook. He'll call me when he's heart broken."

ADVICE : HE is just NOT into you!

2) Situation : You went out couple of dates.. and it was good! Happy dates - good company. But you start to notice the pattern - that if you don't initiate the conversation.. he won't. But if you do - he continues to have a chat with you.

ETP : Wait. He connects with you when you talk to him - that's the point! Who cares about who initiate it first? He is TALKING to you isn't he? So what if we initiate the conversation MOST of the time.. er.. hmmm.. when is the last time he initiated? ... But he bought the dinner and drinks.. if he's not interested why would he waste his money? He told you that he thinks of you when he wakes up.... Think again.. it was you that initiated the question - Who did you think of when you wake up?

ADVICE : HE is just NOT into you!

3) Situation : You SMS and he doesn't reply. You are stuck in this fantasy world where the previous things that happened - stayed and you don't want to accept what's the REALITY.

ETP: "He told me he loves me.. He told me I was the woman that wants he wants to have his kids.. He told me he's not playing. He told me time is just not right... He wants to focus into achieving something else first before being with me. He said that he wants to bring me to a holiday and ask me to focus into that."

ADVICE : HE is just NOT into you ... ANYMORE.

When you look into my eyes - I grow stronger...

"It's already hard for me to say anything at this point of time... our story started off
when I leaned on your shoulder. Today serves as the very important day for the both of us.

On the romantic beach where we could be exactly who we want to be - there you held me in
your arms and I felt safe. We both felt it was weird to feel how we feel about each other
at this point of time.

We'll never ever find the reason why that "so sure" feeling, but we both felt it. Eventhough
time was not on our side - I've never ever felt so strong about someone ever before.

Ever had both the most happiest time and saddest time of your life on the same date? That was
our "break-up" trip to the mountains.

You read my mind - no one has ever done that before .. it's amazing how it just felt so
right. You couldn't imagine the things that I was willing to do for you.. The crazy ideas
that I had in my head - but it's worth it.

You slept next to me, you love to hold me and I love to be held. It was an assurance that
you promised to show up for the afternoon gathering - it was a way of assuring me to put my
100%. It was disappointment but it pushed you to a limit in which you said "I'm not ready
for this kind of commitment yet." That hurt, but guess what? That was the truth.

I will never forget what we had - and what we will have in future. I love to live in a fairy
tale and this is my fairy tale - One day, you would show up in front of me telling me
"Sweetie, will you promise me to insult me for the rest of your life?" I would say "yes"
still...

I'm writing this before D Day - and I'm only posting this on D Day. If you gave up our fairy
tale before this post, was your decision at that point of time - and you should learn to
live by your decision. Be true and stick to your decision ok? I'm happy for you and I'm
glad to have that chance of feeling LOVE :-). I might be an idiot to wait - but I promised."

My dear friend - the person who is telling the story, love is always around, and don't ever
say you will never love again - as you've learnt that love do appear when you least
expected. When you say that - it hits you hard to learn that there are many cupids out there.
Don't give up - as Life is like an hour glass - when it's down - there is someone out there
to turn it around! Don't worry - Everything Happens For A Reason!

Try to Remember

2 months passed so fast.. It almost seemed like it was yesterday since I tendered my resignation...

What's next? What's new?

Next - I'm heading off to concentrate things that I wanted to do more.. and when the right opportunity lands on my head.. let's GO!

New - you know how messy my love life is - can never get it right. -- wait. that's not new.
hmm... let me tell you a story.

Ever felt like when you lean on someone - it's feels just right?
How he holds you in the arm, how he smiles, how he looked at you - melts your heart.
The way he whispers into your ear - I Love You... gives you the butterfly in stomach.
Nothing else matters in this world - you want to be selfish.
Everything seems right but wrong at the same time?
Your feelings is like thin glass in which will break any minute any seconds.

Do you then put everything on top of the glass knowing that it's going to break?
Do you then put everything at the bottom of the glass to support it when it breaks?

Heart tells you that this is it...
Brain tells you STOP THIS NOW.

Can I flip the coin?

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It’s me again! These few nights – I kept hearing her cry to herself. It’s quite sad for me, this time, she’s quite hurt. I still don’t know why. All I can do is just sit next to her to accompany her and tell her that she’s not alone.

I think she’s really fragile – she seemed so strong – because she tells her self everyday “Be strong Jolene”... but deep inside, she’s not.

I’ve been with her for 6 years now.. ever since I was the baby when she held onto me tight saying “Chai chai.. that’s going to be your name..” She looked into me with those dreamy eyes of hers, that moment of time – She was so happy. I miss those sets of eyes.

I don’t know what love is.. I guess it’s really tough – looking at how she goes through her tears whenever she’s not happy and sometimes she laughs in her dreams. But she should realize that there are so many other people who loves her in different way – but it’s still love.

She knows that... cause I see her talking to herself sometimes, I’ll never forget this moment I had with her... just few days ago.... She came home looking all tired .. “Baby, you know I love you, I know you know I’m sad. It’s just so tough in this world... I’m glad I have you to hug when I come home.” She lied next to me the same position I was lying down looking at me and fell asleep...

XOXO

Love Artist

Couldn’t sleep. Closed eyes but mind just thinking of him. Think about the shoulder that was just comfortable. The perfect scent that keeps you safe. Almost felt the gentle kiss on your cheek. Open eyes. You’re still here. Alone.

I start thinking about the last relationship that I was happy with and enjoyed that feeling of love... it was when I was in the long-distance “pen-pal” relationship. That feeling – when you’re just shining even though you just had the worst day in the world. That certain feeling that warms you up at night knowing that you have someone who loves you and cares for you. SIGH. It’s just so funny.

I watched the movie – Ugly Truth today. Brilliant movie I think. Lust – blue balls last you for 3 hours? Love – hurts you for 3 years. People laughed at that thought. It’s true though. It’s tough to draw that line between ‘lust relationship’ and ‘love relationship’. Which makes you happy deep inside?

I realize I’m in this mode where I get all mushy and lovey to a guy that does not exist. Symptoms includes when you’re making excuses for the guy’s absence in your life. You painted this romantic scenery where he in fact brought you to a dumpster. You cherish his 5 minutes call even though it was you that SMS him in the first place. You paint this love story that you began. You’re so engross about making it the perfect love story that you’re hidden between the lines of your own love story.

I realize that I was also happy when I was in the relationship with Mr. J – he was not physically here, but I painted that PERFECT boyfriend image in my head. Not saying he’s not good. But I want to point out that I was in fact happy painting that picture. Weird.