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Goodbye Malaysia, Hello Singapore (again).

2011-03-31T21:09:00.009+08:00

Hey all,

It's been a while.. and yes indeed it was tragedy what happened to my beloved cat.
I still miss him EVERYDAY. pfft...

Well, loads have happened... changes in all areas... family, love, work.

Quick update on Family - we have our beloved Caden Lo joined our crazy family... he's soooo adorable - he's making his way to win everyone's heart... here's a picture of him:

Love - will update once it's confirmed. :)

Work - well.. as many of you have known.. I am leaving Msia (again) - yes.. I'm heading over to our neighboring country - Singapore! The land of the lions...

I am grateful for every single individual that has touched my life here in KL. It's been a rough, crazy, exciting journey for me since I've moved from Singapore. Indeed... I've survived through some crazy journey involving Exciting yet Dangerous moments of my life. There are soooo many people in which I would love to say "Thank you" so much to.

Family:
Bro's & Sis-in-law's - Thank you all for the lovely Sundays, it is the BEST way to spend Sundays - with 3 of us together - we talk crazy shit - and we laugh all our stress away. This is THE best medicine ever... and I will miss you all sooooo much - especially Sundays .. now it would be very lonely for me in Singapore. I promise to visit more often since it's so near. Once I've settled in, you are all welcome to come over here :)

Mom - Thank you so much for being a mother to me, being my best friend to me as well. You know I love you SOOO much! Yes, I know you would worry about me no matter how old I am. I will stay strong and healthy. (I'll try!) Don't miss me so much now - and please... go out and find yourself the MAN that you've always dreamed about. ^_^ Love you mom! Singapore is very near - and I know you would be moving over (soon I hope). It's your choice. :)

Colleagues:
Team Malaysia - I've said all my goodbyes (individually) to you all - but here is the summarized version - I LOVE YOU ALL no matter what! Stay strong and kick ass! Someday, our path would cross each other again... I'll miss each one of you - and it's only YOU all that makes this Team Malaysia AWESOME! I'll make Team Malaysia Proud :)

Awesome Friends:
Animal Club - Heya.. I'll be spending my last Saturday Night with you folks - and no matter what... we've grown up sooo much, I still hope that our friendship stays strong. I've missed our trips where we get lost and drunk for FUN. But hey, we're all adults now - some of us are.. ;p Will miss you all especially Sue Ling, Jarett, Bernard... :)

Lions Club - Har! I've been missing in action - I know.. and I do apologize... Great to see you guys finally active in Facebook ^_^ woot woot! Thanks so much for your constant understanding and love... Please do take care! Keep in Touch!

VVIP Chat - Hi guys, you are all my BFF's :) Thank you sooo much for the crazy support and love you've given to me since donkey years... (GIS?) Love you all soooo much! Nana/Mich - I will see you in SG more often ... Howie/Veron - I will miss you both very much - once I've settled in to SG and get my Mobile stuff fixed up - I should be having iPhone ... then pls add me on VVIP Chat. Thanks for everything - putting up with my endless love stories... no 1, 2, ....

MSFT Friends - I know I've lost touch with most of you... Know that I've thought about you folks a lot :) Thanks again for everything... keep in touch!!

MACHAs - (do I have to specify who you are?) hehe... EMO Boys... :) I love you all... (as friends hahaha)... anyways... thanks soooo much for the endless support and love that you've shown to me ^_^ you all soooo sayang me ... I won't forget you guys.. I would probably miss you guys most! Now, I have to find SG Machas - if not I tweet you all - will you all drive down to drink and sing K with me? Gonna miss you all.. and THANK U again.. for showing up during my Farewell... TQ *bow bow*

Working Friends - seriously, I really look at you all much more of Friends than anything else.. It's been great to know each one of you. Mark Darren Lee, Richie Khaw & DiGi Gang, Syahar, Annuar & MAS Gang, Kenneth Teh, Melissa Chan & CIMB Gang + Octo, Kenneth Wong & Celcom Gang, Spencer & AA Gang, Joanne Chen, Desmond Kiu, Eileen, Edmund & Group M Gang, THE ENTIRE Starcom, Yoges, Kit, Emily & Zenith Gang, Danny Chin, Karen Mak, Yuki, Raymond & OMG Gang, Darren Yuen & Carat Gang, Soon Liang & Vizeum Gang, Pavan, Neeraj, Ulas & UM Gang, Jordan & Media Mind Gang, Rene, Pete, & all my ex colleague in BDS ... and all those that I didn't mentioned (please forgive me as I'm in a lot of medication as I'm typing all these)... ok *phew* ... Thank you so much for everything you've done for me. You gave me an opportunity to be friends with you and I cherish it all the way... If you've not heard this - it's because of YOU all that I had this opportunity to do what I dreamed about. I owe you all for this. I sincerely THANK you all. ^_^ XIE XIE! I'm very sure our path would be crossing again.. Look forward to see you all soon! Thank you so much those of you who showed up on Wednesday Evening :)

Star-Hoo Drinking Friends - Ethan, Erng Mei, Ronnie, Melissa, Justin, Chieu Mei - I know we've only had a few times.. but I felt as though we've bonded sooo much from it.. Genting is definitely the crazy one.. :) not to mentioned the Digital Webby... I'm gonna miss you all soooo much - especially Ethan, Ah-Mei, Mel -- muackss... stay crazy and drunk okay? Visit me when you all can in Singapore okay? ^_^

BFF - Desmond Wong ... sigh... I'm gonna miss you lots too!!! Now, I have to look for a new singing partner - that has the AWESOME voice.. (Yes. you are better than the DJ Club ones - well some of them la) Thanks for everything... you're an awesome BFF to have! You've cheered me up soo many times .. (you don't even know it) hahahhaa.. stay awesome okay? I wish you good luck in everything!! Love, Work, Business, Kids (making more i hope) hahaha.. and err.. Get that SPORTS car! :) so when I call you to come SG - it would be just 1 hour away...

Friday Nighters - Stan & Minh - me gonna miss Friday nights man.... Finnegans and crazy debates you guys have.. Love Hate Relationship there... :) you dudes take care and I see you both soon in SG! Keep the love tight there yah? *hugssss*

BF - Jo Lee ~~~~~ I'm gonna miss you babe... Even though you're so busy now.. we still have Friday night. Oh wait. That's tomorrow... :) YAY! You go SG often okay... I don't care! You better remember my birthdays and our Anniversaries... and *thinks* what else? special occasion as well... if not.. I ANGRY BIRD U.

PAPA - Ker Loon ^_^ thanks for calling me last night.. it was very sweet!! I wish you were there too! Now you BIG SHOT already la.. knowing all these NEW Juicey Whisperers friends.. :) I am very sure our career path would run into each other one day... ONE DAY! :)

Other Awesome Friends:
Now Friends Not Colleagues - but upgraded now Client - Asha... :) *hugs* gonna miss you babes... I am missing Jennie already... but she's so far away.. no difference for me.. SG/KL. Asha - you take care of yourself yahh.. don't always "mommy" ppl around and don't think for yourself... ^_^ muackss... see you in Hanoi!

Alan Wong - hey dude.. you didn't show up for my farewell! Thank you so much for everything ^_^ You go to SG so often - so I will see you there then :) *hugs* I will remember your PROMISE.. haha.. ;p

Alicia, Natalie, CH, Michelle - harloo... thank you guys so much for everything.. it was very nice to have met up with you all again for karaoke! Not like we spend a lot of time together recently, but I do miss our crazy times before... :) Gonna miss Alicia most! ~~~~ ^_^ muacksss you all take care now.. when u're in SG - call me kay?

Crazy Ladies - Alice Chang & all - Thank you Alice for coming last night :) I hope we all keep in touch and well - you are all married.. so update me when BABY is OTW yahhh? hehehe Thanks Alice for the lovely gift :) I will wear this boarding the flight...

Chee Keen - Dudeeeee... we no fate la.. hehehe anyways.. thanks for being there for me (virtually) whenever I needed to "TYPE HARD!" hahha.. Thanks dear for everything... your constant updates to me helps me to know "I am not the only one" hahahahha :p Hope to see you soon! *hugs*

Well.. Thank you all so much for coming to my farewell on Wednesday - I can't believe I didn't take any picture... :(

Thank you all for the lovely pressies too --- *hugs n kisses*

This is from the CIMB Gang... Thanks Kenneth Teh, I am bringing this with me and putting on my desk - this Octo - my baby ~~~ :) I remembered working on this during MSN days.. ^_^
This is from my lovely replacement - Ai Ling - babe.. this is soo awesome! I absolutely love it! It's expensive.. it's from JUICY Couture! Love the box.. Will bring this with me as well :)

This is from Joanne Chen (Group M) - Thank you so much for this.. I took out all the boxes and put the 2 bottles straight into my toiletries.. will be using this for my bath in Singapore! :) Thanks again "Mom-in-law" :) take good care of my hubby yah? ^_^

I'm leaving on Sunday - so if you have time during lunch - come by at KLIA! I will officially depart at 2.30pm - meaning that i would check in 1pm. Farewell lunch at McDs @ 11.30am onwards... :)

Well that's all for now... Stay tune for SG Regional Role Updates...

Take Care now.. ^_^ Love you all!

Jolene

To Jolene From Chai Chai

2011-01-03T10:54:00.004+08:00

Dear Jolene,

I thank you for everything there is for me, you took me from a cage where I was going to be put to sleep when I was just about 1 year old. I still remember your foot - the best part that I very love to manja on.

I remembered our 1st Christmas together - I still remember how I slept on your hair to feel safe sleeping at night. I was so scared of the scary sounds in the air - which you all call it Fireworks. I remember you even held me tight asking me to see it. That was scary - I thought the whole world was falling down.

I remember you bought me a lion - and say - this will be your best friend and he will protect me at night so I can sleep. I also remember those time where I would try to wake you up to work - you're a tough one to wake up. I've tried licking your face - and then you had sheet to cover. I've tried slapping your glasses to you - you hid them away. I've tried biting your toes to wake you up - you tucked it the sheets. I've tried tapping on your laptop so it would make sound like an alarm - you muted the sound. I've tried scrapping off your keyboards - I manage to take off "C", "3" and "P" - (no it's not a mystery) - but you close the lid off. But I seriously hope you can wake up by yourself now. :)

The truth is - I've watched you grown up in all these 6 years... I have became your safety zone - where you know when you're sad - I am always here for you. I would just rest my head on your hand - and I can see your little smile underneath all the sadness and tears. You have become a little like a "MAMA" to me. Your aunt noticed that I don't "MEOW" - but it's more like I'm calling you "MAaaa" funny huh. I wish I could talk more - but I can only blog.

We've had our moments - where you were soo angry at me - when I accidently poo'ed on your bed. You went away sooo long - and I missed you - and then I felt like I needed to poo... (I know I know - no excuse). Every time you hit my butt - it felt good - coz it proves you still care about me.

I love it when you are working - I jump on this space between your face and the laptop so you could kiss me gently on my head. That's the best part that I will always remember - it almost felt like I need that EVERYDAY.

Mama, please know that I love you and I will always love you no matter where I am.

In loving memories, signing off for good ...
Yours Truly,
Chai Chai

030111. 9.00am.
KL: The loving cat Chai Chai, whose body was found at the floor with extreme head injuries, slipped off from 6th Floor - passed away on the hand of the owner while driving to the nearest Clinic on Jan 03, 2011. The family will miss him dearly - we will all pray for him - Rest In Peace Chai Chai.

Ending 2010. Starting 2011

2010-12-30T23:35:00.004+08:00

I’m glad that 2010 is going to end soon – can’t wait to 2011. It’s gonna be great!

2010 has been great year for me - it's been up and down, no dull moments. Family is great, my elder brother had our first ever generation of Lo's - he's adorable. He's now on my phone wallpaper to make me smile. My younger brother has gone off to college, and living the TEENAGE dream - has a beautiful girlfriend and so loving. Mom is great - she's so independent now - I am so proud of her. As for Chai Chai - the man of my life - he's still adorable and cute in his very own way.

Work's been great - closed a few big deals - got to see how politics work in a big company. Career path is on track - we've got a great leader who inspires me. I love that.

Love - it's just so messy - it's hard to understand. So many times - I felt sooo lost, felt like a hypocrite, felt like a slut, every single feeling there is - I felt it. But you know what? It made me stronger and more matured. It has built me up to be like a robot - I feel like I could never love again. Am I wrong to say that I don't believe in love? Maybe the time is not right, maybe I've not met the right guy. So many excuses were put out there for me to feel better. On this note - I am thankful for all my friends who are always there for me. Friends who laugh with me on my ugly side, friends who hugs me when I needed it.

People, I will love again one day - trust me - and when that day comes, it is Love, Faith and Hope that I would be thankful for. Without my friends and family - there will not even be the 3 elements that I could hold onto. To everyone who has touched my life in every different way - from the bottom of my heart - Thank You. Thank you soo much for loving me.

Happy New Year!

With lots n lots of love,

Jolene :)

Trip to Bangkok

2010-09-20T02:51:00.004+08:00

It's been a while since I last blogged about my trips.

It was a very last minute planned trip to BKK, however, I enjoyed every last bit to it. The country is just simply refreshing and I had soo much fun!

I could actually imagine myself living here. Having my weekends going to Platinum Mall - strolling for new outfits every week. Going for a full body massage for only 250Baht to de-stress. Eating authentic Thai food every weekend. I COULD live here!

Seriously, you need to try this restaurant when you go to Bangkok! This is THE BEST of the BEST Thai food you'll ever tasted!

Ruen Mallika - Awesome Thai Cuisine!

This is salted egg - squid.. nice appetizer :)

Famous Pad Thai!

Duck Curry - wah.. the best!

Romantic Settings... Indoor and Outdoor

Doesn't this look like Dicks coming out from the ground?

The trip was 60% shopping, 30% food and 10% sleep - it was just simply amazing!

Coming up next - Hen's Night... interestingly enRICHing.

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2010-05-30T02:10:00.001+08:00

Hey all, just in case you were wondering how I was… I’m absolutely doing fine.

It’s been few months … I don’t know how to use her new laptop. Took me a while to learn how to unlock her password.

I noticed I came into her life for about 6 years… seeing her through ups and downs makes me understand her a whole load better.

She’s changed a lot. She used to cry a lot about her love life – now she just talks about it – tears a little bit.

I don’t understand how is it that she says she’s only successful at work and she just sucks at love.

Love is something that falls into the place – you don’t really get to control it. Then again – I’m no one to be commenting on it.

She said recently she’s been seeing people through all walks of life. She says she’s no longer taking the chance like how she used to.

She doesn’t party anymore, she goes out for business dealings, she goes to the gym. How on earth is she suppose to meet “someone”?

It’s funny to see she’s changed her lifestyle – she used to go out a lot until middle of the night. Now, she’s home by 2am.

She spends more time with me – loving me and bathing me. It’s great! But I want her to be happy too!

Few weeks ago – I could sense she was happy. Something happened.. she’s not saying anything at this point of time.

Let’s find out…

xoxo..

Chai Chai

I can't make you love me

2010-02-10T00:40:00.001+08:00

turn down the lights
turn down the bed
turn down these voices
inside my head
lay down with me
tell me no lies
just hold me close
don't patronize
don't patronize me

i can't make you love me if you don't
you can't make your heart feel
somethin' it wont
here in the dark,in these final hours
i will lay down my heart
and feel the power if you wont
no you wont
cuz i can't make you love me
if you don't

i'll close my eyes
then i wont see
the love you dont feel
when your holdin' me
morning will come
and i'll do whats right
just give me till then
to give up this fight
and i will give up this fight

HE is just NOT into you!

2010-01-24T13:16:00.002+08:00

It's often that human beings are just not reading each other right.. It's also often that human beings are just different and the perception of things are just simply ... DIFFERENT.

I've derived a couple of "insights" according to myself to show female thought process of several situations... (well.. I'm not speaking on behalf of all female population here.. let me just quote that).

1) Situation : You guys seem to get along pretty well.. and you are just waiting for the next date. But.. HE DOESN'T CALL. What does that mean?

What a girl would do - is to make thousands and thousands of excuse to herself about him not calling. (Excuse Thought Process - ETP)
"He's probably busy with parents. He's probably working on a project that is very important. He's probably hanging out with friends.. His friend is probably in trouble and it's too complicated to even explain. He'll call when he's free."
2 days later...
"He's probably has another date to attend to.. He's travelling? Maybe I should just dial his number to see whether he's in town. But that's no good. That would make me look desperate. Need to have my "mojo". He'll call when it's the right time."
Saw him with another girl...
"She's probably his client.. quite hot though I must say. She is thinner than me.. She has nice hair. Let's just Facebook her and find out whether she's single or not. Hmm.. she has a lot of photos taken with him... They look good together. It's okay.. they are not together officially on facebook. He'll call me when he's heart broken."

ADVICE : HE is just NOT into you!

2) Situation : You went out couple of dates.. and it was good! Happy dates - good company. But you start to notice the pattern - that if you don't initiate the conversation.. he won't. But if you do - he continues to have a chat with you.

ETP : Wait. He connects with you when you talk to him - that's the point! Who cares about who initiate it first? He is TALKING to you isn't he? So what if we initiate the conversation MOST of the time.. er.. hmmm.. when is the last time he initiated? ... But he bought the dinner and drinks.. if he's not interested why would he waste his money? He told you that he thinks of you when he wakes up.... Think again.. it was you that initiated the question - Who did you think of when you wake up?

ADVICE : HE is just NOT into you!

3) Situation : You SMS and he doesn't reply. You are stuck in this fantasy world where the previous things that happened - stayed and you don't want to accept what's the REALITY.

ETP: "He told me he loves me.. He told me I was the woman that wants he wants to have his kids.. He told me he's not playing. He told me time is just not right... He wants to focus into achieving something else first before being with me. He said that he wants to bring me to a holiday and ask me to focus into that."

ADVICE : HE is just NOT into you ... ANYMORE.

When you look into my eyes - I grow stronger...

2010-01-12T20:57:00.000+08:00

"It's already hard for me to say anything at this point of time... our story started off
when I leaned on your shoulder. Today serves as the very important day for the both of us.

On the romantic beach where we could be exactly who we want to be - there you held me in
your arms and I felt safe. We both felt it was weird to feel how we feel about each other
at this point of time.

We'll never ever find the reason why that "so sure" feeling, but we both felt it. Eventhough
time was not on our side - I've never ever felt so strong about someone ever before.

Ever had both the most happiest time and saddest time of your life on the same date? That was
our "break-up" trip to the mountains.

You read my mind - no one has ever done that before .. it's amazing how it just felt so
right. You couldn't imagine the things that I was willing to do for you.. The crazy ideas
that I had in my head - but it's worth it.

You slept next to me, you love to hold me and I love to be held. It was an assurance that
you promised to show up for the afternoon gathering - it was a way of assuring me to put my
100%. It was disappointment but it pushed you to a limit in which you said "I'm not ready
for this kind of commitment yet." That hurt, but guess what? That was the truth.

I will never forget what we had - and what we will have in future. I love to live in a fairy
tale and this is my fairy tale - One day, you would show up in front of me telling me
"Sweetie, will you promise me to insult me for the rest of your life?" I would say "yes"
still...

I'm writing this before D Day - and I'm only posting this on D Day. If you gave up our fairy
tale before this post, was your decision at that point of time - and you should learn to
live by your decision. Be true and stick to your decision ok? I'm happy for you and I'm
glad to have that chance of feeling LOVE :-). I might be an idiot to wait - but I promised."

My dear friend - the person who is telling the story, love is always around, and don't ever
say you will never love again - as you've learnt that love do appear when you least
expected. When you say that - it hits you hard to learn that there are many cupids out there.
Don't give up - as Life is like an hour glass - when it's down - there is someone out there
to turn it around! Don't worry - Everything Happens For A Reason!

Try to Remember

2009-12-13T00:08:00.002+08:00

2 months passed so fast.. It almost seemed like it was yesterday since I tendered my resignation...

What's next? What's new?

Next - I'm heading off to concentrate things that I wanted to do more.. and when the right opportunity lands on my head.. let's GO!

New - you know how messy my love life is - can never get it right. -- wait. that's not new.
hmm... let me tell you a story.

Ever felt like when you lean on someone - it's feels just right?
How he holds you in the arm, how he smiles, how he looked at you - melts your heart.
The way he whispers into your ear - I Love You... gives you the butterfly in stomach.
Nothing else matters in this world - you want to be selfish.
Everything seems right but wrong at the same time?
Your feelings is like thin glass in which will break any minute any seconds.

Do you then put everything on top of the glass knowing that it's going to break?
Do you then put everything at the bottom of the glass to support it when it breaks?

Heart tells you that this is it...
Brain tells you STOP THIS NOW.

Can I flip the coin?

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2009-10-11T14:56:00.003+08:00

It’s me again! These few nights – I kept hearing her cry to herself. It’s quite sad for me, this time, she’s quite hurt. I still don’t know why. All I can do is just sit next to her to accompany her and tell her that she’s not alone.

I think she’s really fragile – she seemed so strong – because she tells her self everyday “Be strong Jolene”... but deep inside, she’s not.

I’ve been with her for 6 years now.. ever since I was the baby when she held onto me tight saying “Chai chai.. that’s going to be your name..” She looked into me with those dreamy eyes of hers, that moment of time – She was so happy. I miss those sets of eyes.

I don’t know what love is.. I guess it’s really tough – looking at how she goes through her tears whenever she’s not happy and sometimes she laughs in her dreams. But she should realize that there are so many other people who loves her in different way – but it’s still love.

She knows that... cause I see her talking to herself sometimes, I’ll never forget this moment I had with her... just few days ago.... She came home looking all tired .. “Baby, you know I love you, I know you know I’m sad. It’s just so tough in this world... I’m glad I have you to hug when I come home.” She lied next to me the same position I was lying down looking at me and fell asleep...

XOXO

Love Artist

2009-09-09T03:49:00.000+08:00

Couldn’t sleep. Closed eyes but mind just thinking of him. Think about the shoulder that was just comfortable. The perfect scent that keeps you safe. Almost felt the gentle kiss on your cheek. Open eyes. You’re still here. Alone.

I start thinking about the last relationship that I was happy with and enjoyed that feeling of love... it was when I was in the long-distance “pen-pal” relationship. That feeling – when you’re just shining even though you just had the worst day in the world. That certain feeling that warms you up at night knowing that you have someone who loves you and cares for you. SIGH. It’s just so funny.

I watched the movie – Ugly Truth today. Brilliant movie I think. Lust – blue balls last you for 3 hours? Love – hurts you for 3 years. People laughed at that thought. It’s true though. It’s tough to draw that line between ‘lust relationship’ and ‘love relationship’. Which makes you happy deep inside?

I realize I’m in this mode where I get all mushy and lovey to a guy that does not exist. Symptoms includes when you’re making excuses for the guy’s absence in your life. You painted this romantic scenery where he in fact brought you to a dumpster. You cherish his 5 minutes call even though it was you that SMS him in the first place. You paint this love story that you began. You’re so engross about making it the perfect love story that you’re hidden between the lines of your own love story.

I realize that I was also happy when I was in the relationship with Mr. J – he was not physically here, but I painted that PERFECT boyfriend image in my head. Not saying he’s not good. But I want to point out that I was in fact happy painting that picture. Weird.

Self Realization Trip

2009-09-01T01:24:00.005+08:00

For many years now, I've always read Archie's Comics and had that installed in my brain that "I wanna be like that when I grow up".

The highlight of my trip a month ago was the time I spent on the boat with this family & kids & not to mention - Dogs :)

It's awesome to own a boat - you get your own parking lot!

This is my favorite picture for this trip - it's just BEAUTIFUL... I miss it already!

Let's get started! The boat is moved onto the water...

Brilliant bridge system - it opens!!

I must introduce you to Henry (my "date") for this trip, I was his human seat belt, as the boat travels quite fast. I tell you - he's a keeper!This was along this river flow, thousands of paintings on the side with interesting writings. If I had the chance, I would write "Jolene is the best!"

Life.. is just ahead of you - and it's up to you how you want to live. I had loads of time to think about what I want in life. I want to travel! Backpacking... is something I've always wanted to do. It's time for me to make it come true again.

Muacks... xoxo

Just Say No!

2009-08-24T23:47:00.000+08:00

In many instances, we often get flattered whenever we have guys going after ourselves. Many of us get more than 1 guy going after ourselves and we feel like it’s a trophy. Just like how guys would feel whenever they get a trophy girlfriend. It’s funny because when season is bad – meaning there’s no one going after yourself – you will find that you tend to appreciate the guy who is going after you. However, if there were more than 1 guy going after you – then you would weigh on which guy is better and you’ll tend to treat the one that you prefer better.

It’s also funny that sometimes, people play the “hard to get” game, a game in which you will find that the more she says no – the more fun it gets. Most guys like it – that it gives them that extra challenge to get the dream girl. Sometimes, it’s not “hard to get” – it’s just the girl doesn’t like you – ever thought of that? I bet! Then, the question is – how do you know it’s sincerely “NO THANKS” and not “Hard to get”?

Instances:

Even though she doesn’t have a boyfriend – it does not mean she doesn’t have a sex life... When she’s talking to you about her sex life, please do ask her – “when was this?” just so you are clear she’s not hinting to you about her CURRENT sex life.

I used to be super good at saying no – there’s this guy who was the hero to everything. I remember him as the sweetest guy on earth. He’s the bad boy in college, super naughty, doesn’t like studying but loves gaming. He would buy me stuff all the time – bought me 2 strips of Vitagen (only white) as that’s my favourite drink in the world. He would buy me strawberries all the time, take taxi to fetch me everywhere. Flowers, teddy bear – BIG hug ones... But in the end I said NO. He said “gal, when you have a boyfriend, please tell me.” I replied “huh? but why?” He said “I want to ask him how he got you – I’ve tried every single way possible...”

I smile thinking about him – wonder where he is now... That’s not the story. How do you say NO to certain individual who is just so persistent and would not take NO for an answer?

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2009-06-14T03:49:00.002+08:00

hi hi.. it's ME (chai chai)...It’s been a long time since I had the chance to write. She’s drunk. She told me that she went to this Media Specialist Award (MSA), had an exciting moment with some group that she didn’t like. She told me stories in which are like all over… I guess she’s really drunk. I don’t even know what’s Media Specialist Award – I know award… I wish got BEST CAT AWARD (BCA).

Nowadays, she’s home early and she’s been going for jogging – had more quality time with me. I love it!

Oh – back to the stories on her funny night out. She said that she went to the night out knowing that the fellas would be there as well, she wanted to “face” them. Just like how I wanted to “face” those birdies who always tease me – kuku kuku kuku. Damn birds!

She said she was very careful with drinks – so she swapped and made the guy drank the same drink that she drank for the rest of the night just so she can make sure that it wasn’t spiked! I think she’s quite clever.

Recently, I somehow injured my leg – so limping a bit, went to see doctor – hated doctors… touch here touch there – ask me to walk walk. Then made her buy me the cage for 1 week, so I can rest my leg. I know she cares about me a lot – but I hate it when I’m in the cage… Felt so weird.

From the doctor, we found out that I’m actually 6 years old already. Time flies!

Tickles

2009-06-05T17:23:00.005+08:00

A wise man shared with me this concept of “Tickles” – I would like to write an entry about this.

You lie awake looking at your partner sleeping, light of sunray suddenly shines over her face, the woman you love, the woman you share all the dirty secrets with, the woman who makes sure that your fever goes down by driving out to buy packets of ice in the middle of the night. Often or not, we always describe her as THE ONE, she who knows your favourite dish, she who knows your favourite TV programme, the one that leaves you alone when the Game is on. She understands you...

You suddenly remembers this flash back of the time where you look forward to make her smile, that very day where you had to be on your feet because if you don’t do anything at all, she’s going to be running off with a JERK. You cannot let that happen, you want to make her happy and have children with her, you wish for it that one day you lie down starring at her beauty as she falls asleep like this very moment.

Often, there’s HONEYMOON period, and there’s GET-TO-KNOW-EACH-OTHER-BETTER period, and then there’s GET OFF ME period. What about the SHE TICKLES MY BRAIN period? We used to think so much before doing anything, almost like playing chess. Thinking a few steps before to get the result that was predicted. Wise man said that the only way to happiness is to find that one person that Tickles you every day until he/she passes away. If you don’t find, you wouldn’t understand the meaning of BEING ALIVE.

K la – I find a vibrator... just change battery only. ^_^

Feeling Lost

2009-05-31T00:11:00.000+08:00

In many instances, I felt like a part of me went missing... A big part of me – the happy me where I’m bubbly as always... the part of me that is so confident that Nothing in this world is impossible... That ME is lost. Many would ask “but... WHY?”...

The one woman that I had most respect for (apart from my mom), the one person that I truly loved and care for was my Grandma. She who told bedtime stories, she who taught me how to be strong, she who stroke me to sleep when I was just a little girl. As I grew up, she stayed back in Penang with Uncle and it is always a good thing that we head down to Penang to visit her. As I drove back the other day – can’t help thinking that she’s not there anymore... that she won’t be smiling at me, chatting with me, telling me that I’m too old and no other guys want to marry me anymore... *sniff*.

My grandma – passed away at the age of 93 years old, the one thing I hate to admit or face the reality... as I kept repeating to myself “She promised she would be there at my Wedding...”. Sometimes, I tear to myself in the bathroom – thinking about how she was here and I didn’t have the time to spend some quality time with her. She must have been disappointed.

I’ve always put work in front of family – and now it’s too late to regret. I know deep down inside – I love her and she will be there for me during my wedding. Grandma, I missed you!

10 reasons

2009-03-23T01:09:00.001+08:00

Since someone invented the 25 random things about yourself thingy on facebook... I've thought about my 10 random things about myself list today... But it's based on CSI...

10 Reasons why I cannot be a CSI:

1) I get stuck on the gate door - don't know how to open it.
2) I take photos of the evidence but forgot to put battery in the camera.
3) I talked to Victim A, Victim B.. then have the same conversation to Victim A again without realizing it.
4) I probably would mix up the blood sample and label them wrongly.
5) I'll sleep drive my way into the crime scene.
6) I would probably spill Milo onto the evidence that I collected.
7) I would accidently knock onto the corner of furniture while gathering evidence.
8) I'll probably start thinking of how to make a business out of what I'm doing.
9) I'm afraid of ants. SERIOUSLY.
10) I'll end up focusing on organizing my next rave party ~~ Knight Castle 09 ~ www.knightcastle09.com

woot woot ^_^

Today is a special day for me. 23.03.09. I found out something that I wanted to hear all these while.
I am not a rebound.

Learn & Adapt

2009-02-23T02:33:00.003+08:00

While I sat there in the dark on a chair with the paper in front that reads "Leo Idol 2009 Judges Form". I had a flash back, few years back, I was on the stage ... (NO, I wasn't the participant.. I was the MC)

I sat there watching one of the performance made me realize something rather important about being successful in business... I was watching this bunch of boys dancing. Do you always notice that group dance -- there's always one person in the group that is extremely good. As always, that one person tries to find people who are extremely passionate and people who can follow the steps well.

I sat there thinking... what if I wrote a book on how to be successful? And it's purely teaching you to adapt quickly. Learn and adapt - that's the key to be successful.

Valentine's Day

2009-02-15T11:50:00.002+08:00

For the previous Valentine's Day in my life... it's always so exciting, so romantic, sweet.

This year.

I spent the morning preparing for my Love Hunt - in which we've pulled together in 2 weeks. I'll be honest here - it wasn't great.. compared to my last event (Massive Worldwide 2008).

Thereafter... it was a simple dinner with Mom & Brother then i had a date with my beloved BED.

Although it wasn't a fancy flower, gift, romantic dinner that cost a bomb... It was actually the best Valentine's Day I had. Doing the things I LOVE (events), spending good quality time with mom & bro discussing about relationship (my bro has a gf... !!). I had a good Valentine's Day.. I know I certainly enjoyed my beauty sleep.

I guess.. I'm growing to like my life right now. No Love - All Work. ^_^

5 years ago

2009-01-24T11:23:00.004+08:00

As I brushed my teeth, thinking about my last reply to Ms. Watever on my other blog entry...

I've changed.

5 years ago..
1. I don't curse at people
2. I have more patience
3. I am more innocent
4. I am more caring
5. I have more confidence
6. I am more active (living the day as though there's no tomorrow)
7. I am more positive
8. I can remember more things (recently lost my handphone.. and found it in my laptop bag - sillyme)
9. I am more gullible
10. I am thinner!

lol.. thinking to myself that did I change for better? or worst?

I think there's no better or worst... past is past... all my experience, friends & family, environment has taught me well. I might be more of a bitch now but deep down inside-- I am still Jolene. Yes - I have changed, that's to protect myself better and stand up for myself ^_^

So anyway- here's a toast to "Good year... Good health... Good wealth! Happy Chinese New Year!
Watch this video .. it made my day! Hope you guys enjoy ~~~

Don't ask

2009-01-19T12:11:00.001+08:00

Funny. So many months passed by and suddenly I have this feeling of asking the ultimate question. “Have you ever cheated on me?”

I asked that to someone who once had the impact and connection with me – but it’s sad to only find out that the answer was YES.

How are you suppose to react to that? I know I shouldn’t be asking this question in the first place. But I’ve already asked and it’s already answered.

Next month – it would be our 1 year anniversary (if we didn't break up). Memory brings me back to the good old days – where he just know what I want to say ... or we said the same thing the same time.... I remembered whenever he called me I would be so happy. It's weird cause we've already moved on with life and then only to find out recently...

He feels guilty.
I feel sad.

Sometimes, it’s best to not ask. ^_^

071109

2008-11-06T23:54:00.005+08:00

Hey hey.. it's me again. She is sound asleep -- she sleeps very fast nowadays. I noticed that she doesn't have much time for anything else as she tries to be a super woman.

Let me fill you all with some updates of what she is doing... She changed job - quit the last job and now a new job which she likes the new environment - she told me her colleagues are all as crazy as she is and she felt a "fit". Then it got me thinking - where do I "fit"? I fit right into her arms....

Anyways, as crazy as it sounds - she has a business on a part time - she is organizing a party. Go check it out - I like the music - http://www.massiveworldwide.com/. I say she is crazy - because she has no more time for ME!

How I miss those time where she has time to irritate me, nowadays, she just comes home - showers - does work and poof ... sleeps.

The other day - she was telling me that her life is finally getting back together after the "lost in space" period. I'm glad she has found her confidence... in some ways... I'm happy for her :)

BUTTTTT... I miss her!!!

Signing out...
Chai Chai (Yes. I am a Cat that writes...)

A-sa-ma-le-kum....

Take more risk!

2008-09-29T23:54:00.003+08:00

Yo yo yo~~~ Yes. I've been busy. Yes - I'm suppose to update what business did I venture into... Yes - I miss blogging... :)

Recently, I've learnt a lesson thru some activities I did... The event "ShootZ" - bring your sibblings for paintball ~~ all 14 of us went to paintball in Subang. AWESOME! sniff - didn't take a lot of pictures... coz I was busy holding my gunnn!!!

Must tell story... SO~ I was the last woman standing in my group... 3 more pallets, 2 guys .. one on the right. one on the left... i was hiding in between two stacked up tires... and my gun -- aRGH... stuck! ... pullng the handle down to fix it..didn't work... *panic*... and the guy on my right was coming closer... and shot~ manage to avoid the bullet... *matrix moment* ... sigh.. gun still stuck.. dont care ... I jumped out with my faulty gun and scare the guy - he went to hide behind the tree seeing me jump out suddenly.

*phew*.. that will buy me some time... *fixing the gun*.. arghhhh... the gun died. stupid gun.

IF ONLY THE GUN WAS WORKING...
Shot the guy on my right with 1 pallet... roll on the floor to up-shoot the guy on the left with 2 pallets. woot woot... then i can blog "a girl shot 2 'SG NS' guys with 3 pallets left".... woot woot

Truth is that - in the end... got a close range shoulder shot by the guy on my left. sniff. ouch. Moral of the story: No matter what you tell to people, the end result is that you will get shot. Always best to take the risk and WIN proudly!

These are the only 2 pictures I have ~sniff~ Yes. Poor him - kena strapped by a silver tape - early in the morning!! lolx... yes. very bulu-ed.
I was also in Hennessy Artistry - and again.. didn't take much pictures coz I was busy with drinking - love the Hawaii Drink. That's some awesome shit.
So I should take more risk........ hmmm... a point to myself.

240908

2008-09-23T23:38:00.001+08:00

hi hi.. it' me chai chai again..
i noticed the pattern of my writting - i'll post once every month

Recently, she is extremely busy with work... she comes home still talking on the phone "let's theme it as -- WHITE!... no.. BLACK!... no... black is evil... RED!... no... ok ok.. BLACK n WHITE?"

While she is busy talking on the phone about this big party she is organizing... she still does kiss me and holds me. ^_^ I'm just greatful she didn't forget about me.

As soon as she offs her phone, I thought it would be time for ME~~ she lie down beside me looking at me... we have this understanding eye contact... and then she's off to another phone call...

She told me stories about how she was to this old couple...

After putting down the petrol pump, pulled out the receipt, lock the gas cap, close the lid... noticed the wira in front of my car ~ the cap was on top of the car...

*What's petrol? nvm.. *

then... they totally forgot about the cap ... and drove off......
so with my instict .. i just knew that the cap will fall... so i quickly sat into the car.. and chase them...

good thing they weren't driving that fast... so when they were taking the corner.... the cap fell out. so I drove up and stop the car.. and went to pick up the cap and put it on my left side -- and I continue to drive and chase after the car...

*chase after -- like how I chase after the lizard.... ahhhh*

then... they made u-turn.. and it was my turn -- the lights went red... so i put on the emergency signal... and went ahead to u-turn... and chase after... finally they stopped at the roadside... I think they want to go to market.... I quickly grab the cap and got down - walked over and pass it to the aunty... and she was like "aa... oh.. thank you.. aiyarr.. dear... u forgot to close the cap la..." the uncle came out of the car... "aaa.. thank you thank you..."

*did they give you a reward? like a fish?*

No. they didn't give me anything.. but it was that nice feeling of being a hero... ^_^

Somehow her eyes glowed while she was telling this story... that glow was so special... like stars in the sky....

Signing off....
Chai Chai

back to basics

2008-09-16T23:50:00.000+08:00

yes - i have ventured into opening my own business ~~ together with Ben, we will be organizing something HUGE in December 2008. Will update later >.<>

Now, I am working in the morning and evening and saturday and sundays.... whenever i hav free time. Recently, met up with a lot of our long lost college friends... and thinking the good old days.

Remember - how we used to carry the plastic folders to class? Waking up -- thinking what to wear -- today is Accounting class - that hottie is in the class - so must wear a bit nicer ~~ Studying in library for exams with friends, doing group research, smoking breaks (I don't smoke!), illegal parking coz too lazy to take the stupid bus, last minute assignments, group presentation.... my my.. how time just pass by so fast.

I went on a date recently - and it made me realize that you know -- it's rare to find guys still treating ladies as though it was their first date of their life... the planning of when she steps into the car - surprising her with flowers... (old fashion? sweet .. i think)... getting the doors for her, making sure the booking is confirmed, the usual *sweat* panic-but-macho look, preparing what questions to ask... lolx... u know the drill ~ but we all seems to grow out of it... as we grow older - does that mean romance is fading? the butterflies in stomach feeling is gone? no more flowers?

I'm not saying that we should always treat everything as though it was the first time doing.. but it's nice to have that once in a while :) thanks date ~~ for making me feel like back to basics ~~ u know who you are...

will you marry me?

2008-09-09T23:55:00.001+08:00

Well lotssssssssssss to update!

1) ME all good now - back to usual self (no more vertigo *fingers crossed*

2) I am organizing a RAVE party end of this year - EXTremely happy as it's CONFIRM ONZ!

3) Getting lots of praises from guys :)

After my incident - like I mentioned.... I'm back to Night life ~ My merdeka was so awesome that I drank 12 hours long... ~~~ and I finally get to meet Michelle (Alicia's Sister)!! She's so cute and wonderful - single too!! I also get to witness Alicia's loss of virginity to TATOO~~ but it's worth all the pain. And how can we not forget the most important thing in the world - my BOSS's Birthday...

He is allergic to Chocolate, cheeze, anything with Milk... So end up buying a jelly cake - which turn out to be yumzz too!

Happy Birthday Boss !!
Yes. He is wearing a Tiara + Sash. And he did a crazy thing too!
After blowing off the candles... My boss asked "Do you guys want to know what I wished for?"

Some of us said "NO~ then it won't come true"

He said.. "What I wish for my birthday is.... *reaches to his pocket* for my gf to marry me... " the rest was in the video I took (which was soooo dark!!!)

Congrats boss ~~~ ^_^

sweet + heart

2008-09-02T23:15:00.001+08:00

When we were kids, mom used to tell us Sweets are bad for your teeth, if you eat more, your teeth will grow black black one... then not pretty anymore.

But, to think of it now - we understand the logic of tat concern.

Ever had this feeling before?

You have a fuzzy feeling towards someone, you also know that you don't want to trust your feelings anymore. You tell yourself, no no... you're not going to think about it. When you listen to love songs, you think about him again. You slap yourself - concentrate!! You have lunch with friends, they talk about Him, heart twitched... You think logically (relationship are just expensive, dinners/dates/phonebills, soooo much effort!)

The usual heart & head debate. Ulimately, no one is going to win.

But weirdly, this debate last longer now than when we were kids - we would just ignore mom's nag and even steal the sweet and stuff it in our mouth before she turns around.

the family ritual song

2008-08-29T00:10:00.001+08:00

Family time ~ lately, I've been spending whole load of time with family. It is indeed a good time together because they are your family - related by blood, and made in the same factory - well my sibblings and I. But family will have to take care of you no matter what happens... they will have to - cause ultimately - there's no one else. lolx. But my family is just lovely - we enjoy each other's company and it's always laughing out loud situations (that's the secret way of how to release daily work stress)

Recently, we celebrated my sister in law & my brother's birthday ~~ August babies... It is their first year after their wedding - celebrating as Mr. & Mrs. Adrian Lo. We did a pot luck at their house ~~

Dinner Menu : Hotdogs, Home made Pai Tee, Soup, Curry, Fried Noodles, Mixed Vegges, Special Prawn (spicy...), Chicken Wings This was my mom's special home made Pai Tee - excellent :)
This was quite interesting to entertain us ~ Mini Scrabble - all magnetic~ it's sooo tiny that you can't really hold the letters It came with the bag for you to draw... your words, it has sliding holder for each player. and a sliding compartment to keep all the letters. You then fold it into two and slide it into the bag to keep it. Soooo convenient!

Wanted to upload the Lo family birthday singing ritual to facebook - and it's so funny the reply of facebook... couldn't stop laughing.

Here's the video of our family traditional ritual birthday song - so this is only two ppl.
Me, My younger brother & My mom happens to have the SAME birthday!
Imagine that song... x 16years

Foodilicious @ Asia Grand - Singapore

2008-08-27T19:30:00.000+08:00

It is a bit out-dated. Just realized I havn't food-blog for quite some time - almost 1 month ago, I was in Singapore for Biz Trip ~ this was the restaurant where we had BIG mom mom for the whole company. It was a walking distance from Singapore Office ~ Beach Road.This was the appetizer ~ stacks of SA-L-MON~ yumz (one of my happy pill)~
This was the all famous Peking Duck ~
W.I.P - where this kind lady was slicing the peking duck...
Then, the peking duck is then inserted into individual folded "pancakes"- it was yummzz.
This is the almighty soup - abolone, bits and pieces of all the most "expensive" parts... the portion was so BIG that it fills your stomach immediately. *slurps*
This was the poor babe ~~ apparently - it was very very good.

This was the sliced pork skin - I think this was my best shot of the evening. This was steamed fish with to-fu, by this dish - all of us were so full already.
This was the bits of the above pork that they took and fried it - it smelled extremely delicious!
To see all my foodilicious - click here

merdeka merdeka

2008-08-24T19:06:00.002+08:00

Sure it's been a while since I blogged about an event ~~ proudly to say - I found some Afternoon Events to go to - healthy (non-alchoholic) events.

Saw the advert from Astro, that's what I've been drowning myself lately (best friends with TV/Food/Bed/Cat/Water/Books).

The ministry is organizing a day where all women (and some interested men) join together to exchange thoughts/opinions about "Teaming Up to Make a Difference" It was a big eye-opener for me - as it was my first time in this Summit.

It started at 9am, registration was overwhelmed - I never expected so many women from different background took time to attend this event. Most of the ladies I met own their own business - as for me - I was on MC.

YB Dato Ng Yen Yen (Ministy for Women, Family & Community Dev Msia) & YAB Dato Sri Mohd Najib bin Tun Abdul Razak (Deputy Prime Minister of Msia) was there to officiate the event.

She was brave in her speech as she talked about reviewing policies, about % of women to be part of the Board of Directors in Private & Public companies and even the extend about the Women Toilet - (Baby rooms are only found in the female bathroom? It should be in both sex, or create a common area for both parents to be allowed in baby bathroom) *woot woot* I was impressed with his keynote speech, he sums up whatever Dato Ng Yen Yen had directly and indirectly requested in a very thoughtful manner. I also attended another event in the afternoon - which is something I am passionate about - Training in general. I was invited to be a Regional Lecturer for LEOs in Region 4, I will be training kids (12-28 yrs old) around Selangor area about our CLD (Continuous LEO Development) Programme. That's just awesome!

I can't wait til Merdeka ~~ 31st August 2008 - that's the independence day of Malaysia as well as the most important thing in the world - MY prison break day ~~ I can finally socialize in the evening..

WATCH OUT Y'ALL~~ I'm BACK!!!

*sniff* still got 7 more days to go...

On a side note. (this is for my book)

If I were to rename myself ~~ What name would you name me?

Someone suggested Andrea.

190808

2008-08-19T18:39:00.008+08:00

hi hi. it's me again. chai chai - Jolene's fav pet in the world.
She took a nap - left her laptop on - so i took the initiative to write a few words....

Well - this month is not so good for her - as she was quite sick.
Her mom keeps telling her to rest her body, she doesn't listen so she fell sick.

I'm happy because this whole week - we played more than usual as she is home most of the time. She's home most of the evening - so I'm not that worried - if she's not home by midnight, I would be smacked by the MOM because I make so much noise -- "WHERE IS SHE? WHAT IF SHE IS NOT SAFE? WHAT IF SHE FAINTS?" But, to the family... it's MEOWWWWWW MEOWWWWW MEEEEOOOWWWW. *frustrated* communication barrier. sigh.

She also told me that her conversation with her doctor to follow up today...

Doc "You look a lot better!"
Jo *what does he mean.. I looked like shit when I was in hospital? probably la*
Doc "All the tests are completed, you're a lot better, but please if you want to move around ... do you have a driver?"
Jo *Driver? Not that rich*... "Sorry Doc, I don't have a driver .. unfortunately" *smiles*
Doc "Can you get one? Just I don't think you can drive yet."
Jo *oops* "Er. Doc.. actually I drove yesterday and today to see you."
Doc *EYES OPENED SO BIG* "What??? Oh! How is that for you?"
Jo "Well. It's quite fun. But - I can't turn my head too fast"
Doc "Oh I see. Just rest more - becareful. I'm giving you one more week MC..."
Jo *Har? ...... die*

She complaints about her one more week of MC -- I'm like ... what is MC?

Oh well... I oso went to do my sun-tan today!

Chill-axxxxxxxxxxxxx~ Signing off... Chai Chai

P.S.
Sorry for waking you up in the morning while you were smiling to yourself... I thought something was wrong with you.

da wish list

2008-08-18T00:48:00.004+08:00

I wish he couldn't stop hitting the net.

I wish he could study the opponent more before playing with him.

I wish he could focus playing and not be affected while going through a mental gang rape.

I wish he could keep serving the ball to the right instead of left (he's a left-hander for god's sake!)

I wish we are all there to support him.

HE - i'm talking about our national hero in Olympics. It was my first time watching Badminton lolx - quite fun actually. Smack it smack it! The heart vibrating sensation, constantly wishing the other guy would break a leg or something.

Got a rather 2 embarassing moments to share with u folks. I had an incident with a state badminton player b4. And firstly, er.. apparently, i got the wrong guy... lolx...

.StrawberrymeowZ. out from hospital. back home sweet home says:
i think he studied in help b4
**~ch33 k33nÞ~**@®cK-Lin Dan vs Lee Chong Wei 2nite @ 8.48pm !!! says:
err wong choon hann did
**~ch33 k33nÞ~**@®cK-Lin Dan vs Lee Chong Wei 2nite @ 8.48pm !!! says:
not lee chong wei
**~ch33 k33nÞ~**@®cK-Lin Dan vs Lee Chong Wei 2nite @ 8.48pm !!! says:
haha
.StrawberrymeowZ. out from hospital. back home sweet home says:
OH hahahah

Back in college, I always have activities on campus, and then *ahem* Wong Choon Hann walked up to me one day - and asked something (can't remember .. i think directions). So I just told him the answer...

Then a couple of girl-friends came over to me...
"Do you know who you just talked to?"
*blur* WHO?
"Wong choon hann..." *hits my hands* (actually why do girls do tat? tells you something really excited and hits your hands - i do that too!)

Being Jolene e blur nutcase. I went WHO IS THAT?
Trust me. They almost fainted on the floor.

I noticed I'm not as patriotic as I should be. hmmm will put that into da wish list.

P.S. I started writting my Chic Lit book today. Now looking for a good Editor (tell me if u know a good one in Malaysia)

hospitalized - part 3

2008-08-15T15:12:00.001+08:00

That straight face - where I can't move my lips to even smile, where my neck locked to the left, where I can't control the movement I'm making and these weird thoughts are just all over my head. "Why do you give in so much?" "Why this .. why that.."

Suddenly, I'm like a 5 year old kid flaming up my temper whenever things doesn't go my way. I lied back straight to the bed, my mom is on my right - she's freaking out as my body sleep kicks and struggles with the hospital sheets and tears rolling out from my eyes. I cannot control myself. The pressence seems a little bit pissed about everything that is not going its way.

Unable to sleep, taken the sleeping pill, filled with frustrations, suddenly I felt another body close to mine - it was my mom's body. She hugged me saying some prayers .. I felt sudden anger in me - wanted to push her away.. but I controlled. I told my mom "cannot. you better leave the bed alone."

All these fightings, trying to take control of my body, at one point of time, I gave up - I am just going to let it take over as I am very tired of fighting and gave my last tear. I hear my mom making phone calls to our "related si-fu" to ask for help. Nothing seems to work right now. NO. I don't give up. I fight.

Little did I know that I was falling into sleep, my mom told me that fight lasted more than 1hour, we've also tried changing places, I sleep on the couch, the chair, but still the pressence was in me and throwing tantrums. I knew exactly what was happening yet I'm unable to describe it but my mom knew exactly what I was trying to say.

Next morning, before I opened my mouth - I couldn't have agreed more with what my mom said "Let's go home...." YES. LETS GO home. Mom made a few calls, I guessed to the SIFU (Chinese Master) - and turn to me asked me "Sifu asked you whether on Wednesday evening - did you go to a noisy place - like disco? or pub?" I opened my diary in my head, flip through.... Wednesday - had dinner with Bryan... that's not noisy. Then head over to Plaza TTDI. OMG. YES - yes... I was at a noisy place.

With the prescribed "solution", my mom then had to purchase a few items and burn it facing South. Following the specific instructions, that night back home - I slept like a baby. Nothing taking over, No sleep kicking, No tantrums.... No pressence.

Woke up the next morning - thinking to myself. WOW. PEACEFUL Sleep in deed. That's a good story for my blog ^_^

Good articles/books/blogs will end up with Acknowledgements - here are mine.

Jack : Thanks for the lovely strawberries, they are just simply wonderful and thoughtful of you. I ate them the next day while I watch Ugly Betty.

Fellow Lions(Darren/Christine/Kee Oi/Kievan/Ivan Ho/Nelson/Levin) : Thanks for coming over with the fruit baskets/ flowers/ angpow... and thanks for being concern even days after the incident.

Daniel Chan : Thanks for the beautiful (not to mention - BIG) flowers that was so beautiful ^_^ really cheered me up.

Steven (Prudential): Thanks dear for dropping by, and yes haven't seen you in 2 years and yet to meet up this way is horrible. Hope to catch up with you soon.

Jarett/Sue/Bernard/Jag : Thanks for the flowers and coming in person to see me and joke around to clear the air... YES - bernard - it's EAR pressure imbalance (not BRAIN imbalance).

Alicia: Thanks babes for rushing over for the last minute "announcement" - lolx YES i know you are not reading my blog yet. coz of the spookiness. Read this next month k?

Muu Team (KC/YP/Jason/Nick/Hans/Huey Ming): Thanks boss (KC/YP) for visiting. Thanks team for holding the fort while I MC for 1 week. muackss!!

Precious FAMILY ~~
Brother Jowin/Brother Adrian/Sis-in-law Chloe : THANK U for driving me, lending me your shoulder, carrying me while I can't walk, Making sure I have plastic bag when I puke, making sure I'm okay in the toilet, Feeding me food, sending me to hospital, taking care of me while Mom's away. SINCERELY - THANK YOU!

Mom : Thank you for rushing back home while you were stuck in Penang, thanks for bein there for me while the pressence was there to kacau me, standing up to all these things in which you fear most, understanding me and feeding me meds & proper meals - I LOVE YOU mom.

Most important of all - each one of you who reads this and care about me so much :) thank you to everyone who SMS/MSN/Facebook/any modern communication to tell me to take care get well and sends their best wishes. MUACKSS - love you all..

Chai chai : love that you teman me everyday while I'm bored @home.
Here's a video of him. so cute. (he's my other "FROM HIM" blogger buddy)

& Whomever I miss out - THANKS a lot kkkk??? love you too! :)

Peace out ya'll
p.s. I'm thinking of writting a book... SHOULD I?

hospitalized - part 2

2008-08-14T23:35:00.001+08:00

There i lay on the bed of the hospital .. waiting for the doctor to arrive... I lie there - spinning, as though the whole world twirls around me (sounds like a book? I thought it was quite familiar too). But seriously, *peningz* - as how my friend says - "see? always take picture tilted.. now you tilted lo!!!" *falls from the chair*

So, back to the story - I fell asleep waiting for the doctor. Woke up, while the nurse asking "What's your name?" Loh Yoon Ching.... "How old are you?" 24... Doctor came over to check "What's wrong?" ... I feel dizzy doctor... and then my elder bro took over the conversation explaining what I've gone through... Thank god for brothers!

I was then pushed on a wheel chair over to my room (after long hours of wait)... Then the nurse found my vain and poked it *ouch* and name tag me as a patient of this hospital. 225 as I remembered... Maternity wad? I remember a remark made by my boss "Jolene... is there something you're not saying to us? Puking... and all..." lolx.

I think I officially suck at writting a scary story... ok. *scary background sound starts ONCE AGAIN* OK OK. There I was lying there waiting for time to pass, sleeping eating, sleeping eating. Til night time comes, the first official experience with the other side of the universe - after taking the sleeping pill, I rested but my body didn't... my sis-in-law was there to take care of me. She slept while watching Ugly betty... and suddenly! my leg shook, shaking constantly... like i'm dancing - or technically - sleep kicking. @_@

That's nothing compared to my second night. I was left alone in the room, and something overtook me. I felt the pressence controlling my body. I immediately told my mom - "I want to take sleeping pill". My mom gave me a lecture saying the after effects of sleeping pill. I felt the pressence flaming up the temper... I said calmly again "I need to take sleeping pill." Mom refused to give and gave me a lecture instead about why I go out at night... weirdly, I felt that I can understand the pressence "Why do you tolerate such lecture?" temper up again..

Then things started to get a bit more complicated - Pressence overtook my body and started showing temper - kicking the bed, hands wanting to tear apart the dripping needle, wanting to shout across the room and i just controlled myself not doing any of it... until tears rolled over my cheeks. I sat up. Telling my mom - "Mom, i'm not at peace... sleeping. Can we change the bed?" My mom freaked out witnessing all the actions. She stoned and then slowly made her way out to the main walkway to the nurse and told her what's happening.

She returned with the nurse, as I sat holding onto the cold bars of the bed, in sweat and in tears, unable to control myself, my neck swayed to the left - and stuck there. I couldn't turn my head at all - I felt the rush of cold sensation as the nurse took out the drip as she has a feeling that I'm going to tear it apart. She speaked slowly "Dik, turn your head to see your mom... " I tried - but I can't! It's stuck looking at her - I couldn't even smile. I had a straight serious face.

That face - when I think of it now... still chills me up my spine. Will continue this tomorrow morning - it's getting late. @_@

hospitalized - part 1

2008-08-13T14:57:00.004+08:00

Vertigo (from the Latin vertere, to turn, and the suffix -igo, a condition, i.e., "a condition of turning about"[1]) is a specific type of dizziness, a major symptom of a balance disorder.

It is the sensation of spinning or swaying while the body is stationary with respect to the surroundings. (SENSATION?!?)

The effects of vertigo may be slight. It can cause nausea and vomiting and, in severe cases, it may give rise to difficulties with standing and walking.

YEs yes. that's exactly what i had. Reading from the google search of "vertigo" which was mentioned once tooo many times this week. Exactly what happened to Jolene?

On Wednesday evening, i remember having a sip (noticed i said A SIP) of house red wine in Wabisabi with Eric, Chee Hooi & Alicia. I went to the bathroom and puked. (DRUNK already? wow, Jolene's cheap to feed!) Not exactly, I remember I told them this was different from "drunk"... Pure dizziness ... maybe it was because I didnt sleep much the night before. Maybe...

Next thing I know - working half day work... I had to go home coz my head was spinning... I managed to walk in the rain to my car... and drove over to my mom's office so she drove me home. I fell straight to bed.

On Friday - I was on mc. Panic like crazy as so much work I had to do... preparation for Tech.Ed SEA 2008. (do i get award now? coz I blogged about TE08?) I just simply cannot miss that event - remember I told myself. I find myself lying in bed the whole day - wanting to get back to sleep to enter the other world where I was absolutely fine - I can do so many things... in my dreams... compared to when I wake up to the dizziness vision I have.

Saturday - gotten better as I got injection on Friday - had to cancel all my dates (sorry folks for all the cancelation). I couldn't even go to the Kent Party, which was quite funny when I mentioned to one of my friends and having his reply "I dont know Kent that well..." lolx...

Having felt better, I was sent home - (as I was home alone) from my brother's place.... MAN, I'm like ALL OVER THE PLACE (P.S. note that i'm typing this while having my semi-dizziness)... the next thing I know. I plunged onto the bed. Dizziness attack! Once again.. I'm unable to do ANYTHING but lie on the bed. Couldn't go pee nor stand up or even move. I tried moving myself to be in a better position than lying 1/3 of the bed... and that was it. I was stuck there until my brother and sis in law came to my rescue... and decided to admit me into hospital. OMG!

I was delivered to the ER section - my first time, I sat on the wheel chair... while the nurse push me towards a bed. They asked "what's wrong with her?" ... pening... or pengsan... those were the words exchanged.. I don't even know what's the difference.... I lie there thinking... wow. I just experienced hospitalized via ER... what a great story for my blog.... ^_^

ok. ms. dizzy needs some rest now. will tell you part 2 later.

Jack gave me this link for how a kitty has similar traits. lolx

Bali Trip Part 2 - Ubud

2008-08-08T22:16:00.000+08:00

Benefits of Tan:
1) Blush – cannot see
2) Blue black – not so visible
3) Theory of wearing black – you tend to look thinner

I told my mom the third reason, she looked at me ... and she laughed. That laugh was just so picture-perfect...which makes my day.
As mentioned, I visited the Cultural place in Bali - UBUD. Loveeeeeeeeeeed it there.

This is the Gua Gajah that is all famous

Sculptures of arts... and tons of sculptures on e wall.

You have to be wearing a Sarong while going in this sacred place.

Ladies - if you have period - you are not able to visit this place at all.

This is the fountain of spring - where you cleanse yourself to good health and future.. This was inside the cave - where the elephant god sat... there's 3 of them in there.. all wearing sarong.
pathway to walk into the gua very dark.

A girl said "Arghh.. i'm clusterphobic..." looks around.. laughs to herself.

I just smiled. Why do ppl do that? say the most obvious things and laughs to the statement.This apparently - are ancestors who died and people who died... and stacking stone are a way to remember them.
nice Jolene angle - (tilted...)
Resident Temples in Ubud, the women have to be in sarong. I loveeeeeeeeeee this shot. I love the architecture of the temples.. just can't get enough of it.

Wanted to sketch.. but didn' have time... :(

this is something I admire a lot. just plain green and look at the pattern... of the planted....

what-cha-ma-call-it

I had the priviledge to attend Balinese Batch-funeral.

This old woman's hair is like Lemur's tail.this was the detailed items displayed on the each family table for the ceremony. They burn the body into ashes... and place it into a coconut.
then, using decorative flowers to place on top of the coconut...
wife will carry the ash to the nearest ocean/river to let it free..
Overall, I loved the cultural things I saw, and I loved the morning walk... it was simply lovely.
Love the fact that i club for fREE!!!

how do you classify as regular guests?Still i find this picture disturbing.... still ..

who am i?

2008-08-06T01:42:00.004+08:00

Ever felt like giving up?

You're this image that people have of you that you are just so perfect, beautiful, innocent, a wife to be, and someone people appreciate and want to have you around...

But life is always like this - it gets tough, you can't decide who you want to be, or who you really are. Life makes you question yourself - when you brush teeth staring at the reflection - Who is this girl? Who is Jolene?

Many times, in my recent 2 years of my life - I'm lost (still am). I used to be this girl who knows exactly what she wants to achieve in life. I still remember my dreams - I had my own business at the age of 21yrs old (which i achieved), and the next business I woud like to build was a Plastic surgery center.

I also have a dream of travelling the world, in adventures so I can write my book! This dream is much more random, un-planned.

So many situation, I play this organized freak who wants to be in control of what I want to do in my life. On the other hand, I want to just have fun with randomness, or at least try to be random.

Maybe I'm pressuring myself as I was previously full of dreams, hopes, positiveness, ever smiley face. But now, I don't even dare to hope because hope brings dissappointments, I don't even dream anymore, simply because I just don't believe anymore.

I just realize something today - I AM NOT HAPPY.

Bid da beads!

2008-08-02T20:04:00.002+08:00

Hi fellow friends...

Recent facebook photo craze got me thinking about it's a fantastic tool for a little creativity ~~

I've bought a whole bunch of items from Bali, thought selling them here in KL. So got time today to take a few shots of the beautiful accessories... and hope that they will all go to their rightful owners.

Here is the link for you to be part of this fun game of bidding! Starting price is extremely cheap! go bid ~~ and be the best bidder to take away your items.

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=63980&id=706070691&ref=mf

Check them out!!

If you are interested in biddng - add me as your friend with the brief password - BID.

If this works out great - I am thinking of other items like Balinese furnitures!!

Stay tune!

what now?

2008-08-01T21:13:00.002+08:00

OK OK. This is definitely what I’m going to say... “You know that we might not be right for each other, but I wanted to let you know that I ......” Damnit! That’s too emo. OK OK try this version... “Look, I like you, You like me ....” NO NO... that’s too macho-iee..

Why do we always end up this way? We are confident and stable in usual state; however, whenever we are in front of someone special – the dang-est thing will always happened. I had a few case myself, I was alone with this guy on a beach (a couple of years ago...), it was going to be a romantic kiss... until I RAN off... haha.. I RAN (literally ran...) Poor dude, he must have felt bad or something.

I’ve seen so many dramas in which when the guy confess – he always screw it up... but how do you pick up from there? How do you change the mindset in which you ‘accidently’ placed on the special someone.

Let’s say – you find this incredible funny guy, cute, adorable, smart and he’s quite good looking ~ someone potential. And let’s say you messed it up accidently and it's something you can't take it back. Now, he think of you differently ... like you are not serious about relationship...

Do you...

1. Call him up an explain to him "actually... i'm not like that... "
2. Fuck it. NEXT~~~

Guys... please do tell your opinion.
This is very useful for us girls... (not only me ;p)

Good luck ~~ my friend ~~~

Foodilicious @ Sushi Zanmai + Cava

2008-07-30T21:39:00.001+08:00

Seriously.. it's non stop birthday celebration for me in July ~ woo hoo!

Office Celebration for July Babies ~~ ME & Hans!My colleagues:

Hans (on the left) & famous rockstar ~ Mingz My Boss~ Quota... quota... no quota. no smile This was Ming's only food.. apparently - he loves simple i guess... Eel filling~
unagi roll.. this is very very good
Prawn roll.. yumz. (can't remember the official names)
Chick on stick!

Egg + Unagi roll... with avocado - my fav! But I prefer the one @ Sushi Groove.. salmon roll... yumzz
oh oh.. this MUST ORDER! fried calamari!
THIS IS MY DISH of the restaurant. Chicken Gyoza! VERY VERY GOOD!
artistic shot ~ fish fish roe

Then.. there was also another celebration@ CAVA with EX colleagues... MNA (Manager Not Around) :)

Nigel (aka Poison) + KC (my boss)
close eyes shot!
Jason Chung (korr) + Iriani (my ex-lovely cubicle babes) - sailor moon~
we all know the famous SANGRIA that I absolutely adores!

This time round. the dessert was newly discovered by Poison & TheMan..

Pineapple with ice-cream (or something like tat) Creme Brulee
Lovely couple of the year

Raja (The King) + Victor (The Man)

Nevertheless.. More foodilicious coming up ~~ as I bring you food in SG deeeeeelicious!

For now.. I leave you with this signboard... why name a road after HOT sex?

Basah = wet (in malay)

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2008-07-25T07:43:00.001+08:00

I miss her so much when she went off to her trip ~ I saw her packing up her bags.. my heart feels weird. I worry about her a lot u know ~~ whether is she gonna leave me here alone ... or is this a short trip.

Now that she's back - she looks a lot happier, cheerful.... and she kissed me saying that she found her mojo back. I'm like.... who's Mojo? don't understand that... but I am happy seeing that she's back to her smiley days and her eyes are back to the shinning self.

She says she's ready to let go and find happiness. She talked to me about her work - and her life - and her plans. She actually talks a lot now. (good in some ways ..) I lie next to her seeing her talking .. listening to her words. I wish she can find a true love one day ... like how she always says "There's someone out there for me... OUT THERE~~~"

I just hope we don't get this kind of guy...

then I wouldn't know where I would be sleeping...

Guess what?

I've learnt a new trick today. If I don't move - the birds won't know I'm a cat.

-Chai Chai

Physically injured. Emotionally healed.

2008-07-23T11:02:00.005+08:00

“Crew cabins, get ready for departure....” Thinking to myself. This is it.... Good bye Lost-Jolene. Gonna find myself.... somehow.

It's true that everyone needs to a break sometimes, whether it’s a break from reality, a break from relationship, a break from work, a break from problems that bugs you like crazy. This is MY break – to let go and move on with MY life, and focus on WHAT I WANT.

Guess what guys? I FOUND HER~~ Jolene – who gets what she wants. I missed her a lot.

Ok ok. Enof emo stuff. Back to How’s the city of “LOOKING LOOKING? VERI CHEAP!”... I would have been so emo about things are not organized, but thanks to the expectation that I set “Go with the flow”... I was pretty much ~~ whatever ~~ blue blue (theme for this trip APPARENTLY)

Landed at Bali. Dumped Bag into Hotel. Lie down @ bed starring at the ceiling. (Nice ceiling). Pack bag ~~ BEACH BEACH BEACH!
Oh YES. You get mentally raped by all these people who would sell you anything... like a BOW.. on a beach?

Well, I had my fair share of getting mentally raped ~ I had my nails done on the first day. Was good for Anna to keep me company – she’s doing this for like 15years, she has 2 kids – one 17yrs old son, one 8yrs old daughter. My nails so beautiful. (did i mentioned ... it’s freakin cheap!!!)

I also had my temporary tatoo done with Joey~~ as I wait for the waves to be more calm for my adventure!

I sat there... watching HOT HUNKS play some mixed weird games – Tennis concept of football. Drooling hot. (4 dudes x 6 packs = 24 packs... droolz)
Of course. Sun set was just sooooooooooo beautiful. I met Bobby – he’s my teacher for Surfing. Painful experience. But guess what? I stood up for like 1 second. HAHAHA ^_^ (truth is.. he never gave up on me even after an ACCIDENT!)

This is the surfboard. Twice my size. Guess what happened? It hit muah face, waist, arm, shoulder, leg... *ouch* indeed. This was the scar on my face.

Didn't know it was so bad until I'm back home. 3 patches of herbs. YES.

Emotionally healed. Physically injured.

Will blog about cultural stuff i did next round ~~

1 last cry

2008-07-15T10:34:00.002+08:00

10.25am... while watching One Tree Hill (Season 5), I’ve cried together with Peyton as she burns the book which Lucas wrote about her... things in which he wrote about her claiming to the world that she’s the one that he loves. Good friends of mine would have just slap my head by now knowing that I’m crying...

“He’s not worth it. He’s just out of his mind. He’s just not the right one for you. He’s crazy. He’s not Mr. Right...” are the exact things I hear throughout the years, ever wonder – what about me? Am I worth it? Am I the right one for them? Am I crazy? Am I Ms. Right?

To be honest, I’m not crying because of a heart broken too many times, I’m crying because this is my one last cry about how things are difficult for me and just the fact that I have to let go... A friend told me last night while sipping on Wine – “It takes a lot more to hold grudges than to forgive”. That’s true isn’t it?

The only man that I need to forgive in which I’ve hold grudges to for all these years... is no other than my dad. (For those who don’t know the story – I’m sorry – I’m not able to tell you another chapter of my life here)

Well. It’s now 10.32am. I’ve cried enough. I think. It’s time to move on in life.

happening july!

2008-07-08T12:45:00.008+08:00

Look at my schedule for this month! It's jam pack! :) good thing i guess... Birthday Dinner @ Shogun (OneU), it's good but you can't take pictures... of the food. :(

I manage to take 1 picture only - there's Baby Crab and the Almond Fishball 04.07.08 - Pre-Celebration of my burfday @ Velvet. Of course this is Michael Su - the Velvet King
There's this new side of OneU - this is a Korean restaurant that does steamboat n bbq - very nice nice quite cheap too!

artistic pose... created by Adrian Loh
Our birthday cake this year! - Durian Cake!

The longest song ever – “Happy birthday to you.... happy bday to u... happy bday to MAMA.. .happy bday to u... Happy bday to you... happy bday to Jolene... u know the drill.. for my younger brother Jowin...” was fun ~~ here are some pictures to share.
this is sibbling shot ... one that looks like doremon
05.07.08 @velvet (again..yes 2 nite in a row)

Password for tat night!
Poh Sze, Kiat Ee, Me, Natalie, Aaron, (top) Keong Yee
Me, Jayan & David
Rachel, Cheng Kiat, Yeng Yeng & Calvin
burfday presie :) thanks u all ~~

Relationship vs romance. 2 different thing i guess.

sniff.. this card - i shall leave it for next year
I'm not 25!!!

But overall.. thanks so much for being with me my fellow frens ~~

*muacks muacks*

happy birthday ~~

2008-07-04T01:17:00.002+08:00

ok ok. drama over. i'm not that angry anymore... chill chill *breathe*

besides... why should i be angry anyways? it's gonna be my big day soon... :) :)

July 5th - marked the day where i was born into this world. it's also the birthday of the woman of my life - my mom... and guess what? it's also the birthday of my younger bro ~~ ^_^ jowin

Apparently, i was made in Genting @_@ (too much info? sorry ~~)

July 5th is also a far away twinnie's birthday~ Susan Lorenzi (ex-colleague). and guess what's weird... it's also her mother's birthday too! i was in 2days shock when i found out about this. believe me.. the only words that was exchanged between me & susan - was "OMG OMG OMG OMG"...

well.. it's just a short post - as these few days - i was quite busy with work and getting my mojo back :) been going out - but no mood to take nice pictures...

oh - btw, if you're reading this and you're from KL Malaysia... please do drop by Velvet on Saturday - I will be celebrating bday there ~ so we take lots of pictures...

muacks. nite for noww ~~

whack him up...

2008-06-30T23:35:00.001+08:00

What’s worst?

Situation Shit:
You are your boyfriend’s BEST friend. The only one he opens up to, the only one he trust to talk about almost everything with. Then CHENG CHENG CHENG~~ he tells you the truth – he still loves his ex and then obviously – broke it up with you. But because you guys started out as friends, and he has no one else to talk to except for you. YOU stupidly listen to the man you love – talk about another woman that he loves. Pretends to be his friend, listen to him, and then cry yourself on a pillow.... SHIT!

Situation Ass:
You and your boyfriend broke up clean – no argument and absolutely the most decent way – adults talking – and understanding that Long Distance won’t work. Then CHENG CHENG CHENG ~~ he tells the whole world that he obviously in denial about the feelings he have for his ex. *NEW : he has a new gf* What an ASS!

Situation Holy Moly:
You and your partner just started but haven’t got together officially... Your partner had a date, and then they got drunk... and they left the club scene to hotel... @_@... You know which hotel room he lives in. You stand in front of the door ... noticed – DO NOT DISTURB sign is on. You hear sounds of girl moaning. Tears rolled out from your eyes. Holy Moly!

Situation WTF:
You did some nice things for your partner – all sweet and really out of the way things... things that you normally wouldn’t do – but because you love that person, you would go the extra mile to make things happen. He tells you “aww.. it’s so sweet of you to do that... really ~ appreciate it a lot” ... turns around and tells his best friend “that’s so awkward!”. WTF!

A lot of us would think that in some situation – we’d rather not know about stuff...
HEAR no EVIL ... so we can still move on with life happily.

A lot of us would want to know the truth and move on ...
SEE no EVIL... so we know it hurts and won’t repeat it again.

A lot of us would rather not know .. but once find out – we will whack that person up!
SAY no EVIL... no need to say further... whack him up!!

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2008-06-27T01:38:00.001+08:00

It's me again! She's finally fast asleep...

I noticed that last few weeks, she's been quite down... as she return from work, as usual - I'm always overly excited about her coming back. She immediately plunged onto her bed staring at the ceiling.... and I quickly jump up the bed and lay next to her. She will then put her hands on my head and stroke my back.. Ahhhh.. nice nice :)

Sometimes, she ask me silly question "Do you understand when I talk to you?" Of course I do... I can only reply "meowww" but she wouldn't understand. Somtimes she picks up my meows, whenever I Meowww differently - she knows that I need to pee or eat or want to go out. But nevertheless, I always stand next to what I want ~ not THAT hard..

As she stroke my head, she starts telling me what's happening out there... she says "Nowadays, people are sooo stress with how things turn out to be ~ petrol increase... oh wait - do you know what's petrol?" she laughed.. gee. of course i know... its what keeps the noisy square shaped thing move! ohh wellz. then she continued "sigh.. I'm stress with how things turn out for me..." she goes on about her love life... this guy.. and this guy... and this guy... sigh..

She's never changed or learnt from her mistakes... she follows her heart most of the time... Sometimes, I wish I can be her prince charming to love her... so she would stop going out there to hurt herself. But I guess I can only be here to lay by her side when she tears, sigh, and bitch about guys... *eye rolled* but I certainly don't want her to turn into this guy below... which woke me up in the morning... (YES. I know how to use a camera!) ^_^

with lots of hugz ~~ good night!

Chai Chai

life is precious. cherish it while it last!

2008-06-25T11:44:00.004+08:00

My brother is like my Sunday buddy ~~ He’s mischievous in the most annoying ways – according to my mom, he like getting whacked by me~

I was lying down on the bed staring at the ceiling, thinking to myself – should I be wearing Green or Red? Well.. Red looks striking.... My bro came rushing into the room, grabbed my phone and start jumping up and down, switch the phone over to the right hand... and to the left hand... so I cannot reach to take it back.... *argh!!* “Idiot! Give back or else!”.... then the phone accidently slipped off his chubby hands... and it just flew in the most perfect arch angle and land on the floor. The “fun” stopped, I felt fire burning on my back “JOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWIN!”.... the big size bro... kinda shrank in size into a small mice went into panic mode... trying to run from me ~~~

The next thing I knew... He jumped to the window... and fell........... @_@ OMGgggggggggggggg... shit! I ran quickly over the window, guilt feeling start raising as I looked over the window.. and hear his scream “ahhhhhh...” I quickly shouted “Hold onto anything at all.. just grab whateverrrrrrrrr!” As he falls (we stay in 6th floor)... my heart fell with him.. . suddenly, he managed to grab onto a black pipe and he stop falling... *phew* my god... that’s so close! “Hold on to it ok? Don’t let go!!!”.... and then the pipe starts slipping off... and “ahhhhhhhhhh....” he starts faling again.. and then soon enough – before I can say anything ~ i heard a loud THUMP he’s on the ground .... not moving!

I ran quickly to the gate... screaming to mom.. “Jowin fell.... he’s he’s... on the floor... OMG OMG OMG.... “ before she could say anything.. I’m already in the lift pressing “G” and felt like I’m gonna collapse soon... I can’t even stand.. my tears was rolling down my face.... I was feeling GUILT ... it was just a PHONE! How could I get sooo angry at my own blood brother? STUPID STUPID!

I managed to conserve my energy and gave it the last breathe... running towards him .... and all of a sudden.. I saw ~ he was badly injured... but he moved..... He’s ALIVE!!!!!!!!!! Omg.... that was the moment I felt that I’m not ready to lose my brother ~~ and I love him very much!

I woke up in sweat. Shocked. Stoned. Exhausted. That was a dream? OMG. SCARY @_@

Today marks the day where my grand-aunt (77years old) passed away due to a Bus Accident while she’s on the way to Singapore. Rest In Peace ~~

Life is precious.. cherish the people around you :)

what to do in Bali?

2008-06-20T19:37:00.001+08:00

OK OK... putting the drama aside ~ need to start planning my trip ~

Destination : B..A..L..I..
Departure Date : 18th July 2008
Arrival Time: 13.55hrs
1) Check in to hotel.
2) Stare at the ceiling.. oh wait. must take picture of the room first ~~
3) Change to bikini. grab my sunglasses.. mat? mp3... water... Sun... TAN TAN TAN~~~

ok. so that's like the idea i have up to now. What is there to do in Bali?

1) Ubud ~ Definitely a stop for me - and my ARTISTIC side ~ probably do sketches (which i haven't done in years now)
2) Surfing ~ well.. since it's one of my list of things to do when i hit to Gold coast, might as well do it now huh?
3) Diving ~ seriously? is it goood?
4) Clubbing ~ what's the special Bali Drink i should be drinking ar?

Things i've booked:
1) 2 hours Balinese Massage ... OF COURSE!
2) 1/2 day tour of the city ~ that would be useful to do on the first day i guess :)

1st day :
1/2 day tour + chill to TAN + clubbing ~~

2nd day:
Surfing in the AM + Diving + 2 hours Massage

3rd day:
Departure Time :2015hrs (shit. what kind of booking i did la ~)
Ubud + walking around

Is that good plan? People ~~~ pleaseeeeeeeeeeeee tell me what is the highlight of Bali ~ :)

TQ TQ

For now. i'm on a diet ~

Signing off.. I'm now in a cruise sipping away cocktail.. getting my first tanning trip (if it doesn't rain) ^_^

PLAY SAFE ~ USE DUREX...

no i'm not going on a cruise with kenny sia ~~

ended with 2 clicks

2008-06-18T13:37:00.002+08:00

mr J was my college mate, the guy who would never break a girl’s heart kinda guy... It is fate that brought us together, and in some ways, it is also fate that brought us apart. Am I sad about it ? Yes I am.

We all know how it started – it was over some fancy site call – FACEBOOK. ^_^ I took the initiative to message him our first message “Hi...” and up to now, we have over 400++ message exchanged, over RM2000 cost of phone bills expensed, many chats about things that doesn’t matter in life was spoken... it’s even rare to find someone who shares the same exact ideal dream date scenario as yourself, someone who can read your mind... (how likely can that be?)

As days passed... I still remember my friends say “it’s your honeymoon period.. that’s why it seems so good :)”. I guess they are right, I didn’t really care then as I was in this mode of happiness and proud to have him as my boyfriend (which doesn’t rarely happens). We both have our own set of life – He has his life over there – with his friends, games, books, vacuum cleaner, work, and his bob ;p n I have my set of life here – with family, friends, charity work, classes, work and I even ventured into his family :)

So many people asked – How’s LDR? Let me tell you that it is seriously HARD WORK. Communication is the key word. Because it’s our first LDR – endless effort of reassurance, my endless ngom ngom (complaining), our endless progressing bills and workload pushed the pressure tab ON. Well, I secretly planned a trip to Bali with him in fact :) and I was so BOBO (dumb)... that I accidently spilled to him that we are going to Bali ~ we both had a good laugh! We have so many of those moments which brought joys into our complicated life.

I have to admit that I didn’t really help by going all moody and emotional – during my period time – so that’s about 4 times in our relationship he has to go through with my insecurities session. The things is that we both understand this “period” PMS thingy and most of the time... the conversation just goes – “bb, you having period?.... ahh I thought so...”.

Sweet memories where he casually calls up and strums in the guitar ~ which melts my heart .. like TOTALLY! And I think I melt his heart cause I spent time with his family :) But the last month of our relationship was quite tough ~ Pressure tab ON, we stop calling each other so much because we can’t afford it, exams round the corner, events and due dates round the corner for me... and of course – how can we not forget – we have so many options in the ocean and friends to entertain and influence our thoughts.

Seriously, sometimes, we use our heart so much that we don’t see things clearly – I may be an emotional girl to begin with – emotionally dependent in fact, but I’m glad I’ve learnt to grow from this – I’m using my logical thinking to conclude this love story that we have. It was a sweet memory of over-the-phone, cyber relationship ~ You think we’ll still be friends?

.StrawberrymeowZ. says:
i'll do it now
.StrawberrymeowZ. says:
ready?
mr j says:
ok , readyyy
.StrawberrymeowZ. says:
mm that wasn't THAT hard
.StrawberrymeowZ. says:
lol
.StrawberrymeowZ. says:
just 2 clicks

In any case, anyone wants to go Bali with me? ^_^

there's something about Apple

2008-06-16T13:17:00.000+08:00

I once know this girl named Apple. She's at this time where it is very important for her to choose the right guy. Again, how do we know who is the right guy?

I guess a big part of being a woman makes us feel like we are emotional about everything, while some of us accepts that as a fact, Apple spends her day being strong and portrays what all guys want ~ emotional independent. She would keep herself occupy with her busy life, making new friends, hanging out with friends, making exciting trips, playing poker.

She's not exactly the girl-next-door type, but she's not too bad of a girl .. besides the fact that she drinks, smokes and gambles. Apple has a certain character to her that no one else would probably have. In some ways, she is special; and she truly believes that Mr. Orange will just have to accept her the way she is.

In her mind... Mr. Orange needs to be the guy she can see him portraying as a father of her kids, someone who she can smoke together when stress, someone who just loves her for the amount of time she needs to get ready @_@.

She’s the type of girl that you would feel very comfortable with, she would definitely take a moment of her time to think on behalf of someone ~ sometimes, her endless caring to her friends in the most un-selfish manner always gets her into troubles. Troubles that would end up hurting herself more than anything else.

Many moments in life when things gets tough - she has friends everywhere to care about her, she sincerely shares her stories and her troubles and because of her sincerity – she gets advices and attention that she needs for her to get her Mojo back.

There are so much of her that is great... and there’s always a saying ~ an Apple a day – keeps the doctor away. Guys need to discover this fantastic gal and “activate” her once again..

smile is good

2008-06-12T17:48:00.001+08:00

Friends are very important.

We'll never know ... until we lost them. But I know they are important cause ...
1) They tell you the worst advice ever... but the most realistic.
2) They tell you the worst case scenario to the extend that you would cry... but you're prepared.
3) They fill you with stories... of stories.. of people whom you do not know... but you're occupied.

For the last few weeks, mood wasn't the exactly the best - I just want to thank a few friends for being there for me and made me smile.... thanks ya all :)

This is Indiana Jones. lol.. but I guess I'm part Indiana Jones too ~ pet pet pet pet pet...

This is Jason - my kor kor... he who always ask me to think realistic about things.
Of course. Who wouldn't know Alicia? lol. and Mary ~ both the ultimate sweet heart :) My grandma - just visited her recently. Sigh. She's lived a long live (92yrs).. hard to describe my feelings with her. but guess what she did? She made me smile :)

and oh. i did some retail therapy - my new glasses i bought from Penang.
Top 3 Best companion in the whole wide world...

Number 3...
Number 2 - Strawberry Margarita ~
Number 1 - Tiramisu...yumz from BoatHouse - TTDI.
If you feel like you're emo too? Always hang out with friends.. it helps..

HOWEVER - If all fails.. please do call these fellas below.. :)

Found this in Penang. Funny huh?

there is a difference

2008-06-10T00:06:00.002+08:00

been feeling down. no one to turn to. things not going your way... *cries*

as i travel this journey of my complex brain... i find that it is due to the difference of brain perception between a guy and a girl that ultimately causes misunderstanding... pls correct me if i'm wrong.

GIRL - "I'm feeling emo..."
GUY - Why now? Aiyarr.. whatever I say to calm her down also will go wrong one. Better to back off!!
Ultimately what girl want : Being there to listen, no need to say ANYTHING at all... just being there... a nice SMS "Hi Dear, Hope you are feeling better today... just want to say I'm here for you :)"

GUY - "This is not a good time"...
GIRL - What? How can that be? I'm your girl friend for gods sake! You have time to twitter other people... or take pictures to upload to flicker?
Ultimately what guy wants : I need space.

GIRL - "Why can't you understand me?"
GUY - I do, I know what you need.... you need space...
Ultimately what girl want : Agreeing with her to whatever she wants to say... YOU ARE RIGHT BABY!

GUY - "This isn't the first time that you're reaching out to me.."
GIRL - WHAT? does this mean that the 100th time - you're not gonna care?
Ultimately what guy want : A statement of anger at the moment... probably shouldn't have said that.

GIRL - "I understand you have exams... We shall talk after your exams..."
GUY - THANK GOD!
Ultimately what girl want : She still needs to talk about everything, she still need re-assurance, she still need your care, she still need your love...

Got anymore? do share...

080608

2008-06-08T18:27:00.005+08:00

Hi fellow readers of Jolene Loh.

This is my first blog entry from HE - who is the sleeping partner of her :) Enjoy...

I sat on the window of the balcony, starring at the annoying flying objects that makes that irritating sound... I hear HER car driving pass ... annoying feeling gone... She's HOME finally...
I ran to the front door, sitting there - repeatingly telling myself... "Hey pretty! You're home... I missed you..." nah. that sounds awful... "Hey momz.. did you miss your little cuttie pie?"... ew. that's not me. I know.. "Meow meowwwww meowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww".. that would do it.

Lift bell stops at our floor, I was so excited. That must be her footsteps.. with that funny looking heels.... not to mention ~ I think SHE is very pretty whatever she wears... She would spend HOURS n HOURS... in the morning - changing ... looking at the mirror.. CHANGING ... then looks at the mirror. Sometimes, she asked my opinion - i only have ONE Look. ^_^ can't help there.

She opens the gates, and she always calls my name in the most adorable way... my heart melts when she calls me... hmm. something is not right... she looks ..... sad. she didn't call me at all, did I do something wrong? I stop pooing everywhere already.... pee? nope. i didn't do anything wrong. Let me go bug her then...

She puts down her bags and she just sat on the bed... she finally noticed me... as I walk in.. she walks to me... and held me in her arms... the hug was A BIT tight... but I guess she needs that. Sometimes, I wish I can say things that she would understand... like "Everything is going to be fine..." but I guess I couldn't.

Then after shower, I stayed on her side while she taps her finger gently on her black square machine - I love that machine - coz it generates out heat air -- I love to sleep there. She suddenly lets out a big SIGH... I jump to the table - trying to stop her from working... she looks at me - and for a moment... there.. I thought I was in trouble. But, I used my head to stroke by her face... and that was the moment where I felt I've done my job .... SHE SMILED :)

Signing off... for now... before she catches me..
Chai Chai

why start something that cannot be finish?

2008-06-05T20:42:00.000+08:00

Question: Ever felt like it's never enough... like when does it stop?

So - someone prompt me this question "Why start something that can't be finish?"
Like what on earth does that mean?

So I decide to write a blog about it...there can be a few meaning behind this...

Theory A : Jack of all traits, Master of none
Always love start something else while working on the other task - so much that currently, I have 4 decks presentation to work on concurrently - and instead of spending 100% effort to finish ONE, I spend 25% on each... but do I get it done? Kind of... not really... @_@

But.. I love the feeling of starting something new.... it's like a NEW motivation of making you think ^_^

Theory B : Patience
I was having a feedback session with my babe ...
J : "I start to notice my pattern on relationship - 3months is the "trial session" and then if it works - it goes on.. if not I choose to stay happy and move on..."
A : "But that's like running away from problems..."
J : @_@ oh shit... I AM...
A : "Uh-huh" *nods nods*

In a situation where you go through shitz but not knowing whether you would succeed or not ... I'd rather play to win and choose being happy...

Theory C : Re-assurance
Guess this applies to a lot people that I know... we all need re-assurance somehow, whether it was purchasing a black tube or a wedding gown. We always need someone to re-assure our decision. Caught this situation:

As Cherry looks herself in the mirror - she turns to her best friend Nancy and asked "... So how do I look?". For a moment, Nancy frowned and pushed her annoying hair to the side looked at Cherry as though she is checking the finished product before delivering to the Queen. Cherry rolled her eyes... "Come on babes.. it's not THAT hard to tell me what you think..." Nancy finally opened her mouth ...
N: "Ok.. here's what I think. The top pattern looked too flowery for you...
C: but... it's Summer!
N: "and.. the cutting of the skirt isn't right for you... it kinda makes you look ... er.. wide?...
C: I've lost 5kg... she doesn't know what she's talking about...
N: "Well.. Green looks good on you but I think the other top in Guess looked better :)"
C: Yes. Green looks nice on me... ok - I'll buy~~

Funny how we just WANT to hear things we WANT to hear...
As friends -- why bother telling the truth?

Seriously... My question back to you...
1) What is the definition of Finish?

Foodilicious @ Wendy's Bistro + Green Room

2008-06-03T22:10:00.000+08:00

Sigh.. I've been called someone who loves food ~~ ^_^

aiyarrr.. I'm on diet weiii (BALI BALI BALI~ think bikini!)

Neways, got the invite to go for a GROUP lunch with my ex-colleagues

@ Wendy's Bistro

Group lunch turned out to be just 3 of us... lol ^_^This is the HIGHLIGHT of the lunch ~ Apparently they said it was GOOD :)

I don't eat pork BY THE WAY ;p

I ate the Breakfast - not worth it :(

But there are some things in which my readers would be interested.. I guess..

Must eat wor~~Unfortunately, as mentioned - I was on diet and the dessert line just almost killed me!I can't help but to take a picture of what it ULTIMATELY looks like... lolNEXT STOP ~ After my Graphic Design Class, I went out dinner with my Jee Muis.

The Green Room @ Hartamas

No.10 (Ground Floor), Jalan 27/70A, Desa Sri Hartamas, 50480 Kuala Lumpur

Tel : 603 2300 0683

This is my Happy Pill ~~ See how juicy it isss? yumzz

Lately, I've been addicted to Dragon Roll ~ It has the Prawn inside & Avocado Topping ~

This is my signature - special requested from Readers :)

I draw Garfield everywhere I go. Ultimately ~ a Graphic of myself :)
Muackss ~~

Benny & Jephrine's Wedding 01.06.08

2008-06-02T22:14:00.000+08:00

Question of the day: Ever met an interesting character until the point that you wish you didn't meet?

Got a phone call from old buddy ~ Benny Toh "Ey Jolene... can you be the emcee for my wedding ar?" *heart skip a beat*.... Brain tells you .. good opportunity ~ maybe new business ...
"Er... OK! SURE!"... *what did i get myself into???...*

Here we have my first clients? - but CONGRATS~
The highlight of the event was the part where i made Benny say
"I want to make lots and lots of babies" as the 3rd Toast - in French ~

The deco inside the hall was just simply ROMANTIC...
they call this - the Fairy Lights... nice :)

Cause of a friend who played with my lighting settings.. my pictures are very DARK ~ but this came out pretty nice -- i like!

Dessert - nice nice.. this is the dish that I sat longest ~~ ^_^

All of us so happy for them ~~

Congrats once again ~ Mr. & Mrs. Benny Toh!!
If you want to hire me as Emcee - please don't hesitate to let me know - My charges are very reasonable :)

scary shit

2008-05-28T10:43:00.000+08:00

Do you believe in Astrology? Today was accurately correct - SENTENCE BY SENTENCE... scary shit ^_^

strawberrymeowz's banner :)

2008-05-27T01:26:00.000+08:00

Finally ~~ i've taken time to design this. I love the sketch on Chai Chai ~~ looks like him :)

Foodilicious @ Bukit Tambun - Penang

2008-05-25T20:47:00.000+08:00

Seriously... don't you find it's hard for you to differentiate between FACEBOOK & Blog?

I find it so hard to ... mmm.. should I upload my pictures on my blog? or facebook? or both? >.<

So for this little weekend getaway - the wedding pictures where it involves PEOPLE. I will upload to Facebook. Since I had the opportunity to eat at this really good SEAFOOD restaurant - I shall blog about it then.

On the way back home ~ we were following my cousin's car... and we thought - he was lost ~~ going through small curvy paths... and all.. until he called me "Hey.. Ching (only FAMILY is entitled to call me that ;p)... I bring you guys to eat Seafood !" ^_^ seafood.. yumzThis place is just simply - Beautiful the moment you walk down the stairways... you saw the scenery of this restaurant which is floating above this nice big river ... it's so classic!

Couldn't help it to spot - kittens... soooo cute ~~ in the atap (roof) of the house

Given that our daily life is about Cars, Laptop, Traffic.. it's just so good to see these kind of things once in a while..Can you imagine how big this piece of fish is?Ok.. this was the annoying part ... damn a lot of flies.. everywhere! I found it so amuzing that the restaurant uses their "CAN-hero" to help shoo the fly ~This is the BEST BEST fresh oysters i've ever had... :)

This is what I call it as "JUET JUET", but you eat the meat with toothpick. Taste like squid. This is the Lai Liu Har ~~ King Prawn? Cat fish... the sauce was excellent! Fish + Bee Hun (Noodle) Yumzz...
Lala ~~ Clams :)

Overall, the bill came up to be only RM209.00 (we had like 6 seafood dishes + 1 veggie). CHEAP!

Apparently - this is the original place for Biskut Tambun LOL.. this was by-far the most interesting thing I found in the restaurant.

Direct ACCESS :)

rain rain go away...

2008-05-21T12:18:00.000+08:00

Recently, we all did something that I'm proud of for Old Folks Home in Puchong.

I wish life was just like painting a wall...

Putting a new coating of colors onto your life ~ and when it all looks bad - cover it with new paint.

I learnt a small lesson about life through painting the home... I would like to share ...

Strokes of paint was coated onto the wall - am I painting this with love? Of course...
Life gets so ugly sometimes that you wish you have the chance to start over...
But when you dip the brush onto the pain and started with a coat of paint...
You start realizing that situations can't be covered up straight away...
When you stroke to fix the ugly stroke... u end up having paint with bubble holes...

Suddenly, sky was crying... You can't paint when there's water...
When there's argument... is it best to solve the problem immediately?
Dapping it with newspaper - so that the water clears away...
Sweeping the problem under the carpet, focusing about how much you love each other...
Waited... soon enough Sun came out... dried all the water, so much easier to paint...

That's my little theory ~ hope people who are in this situation gets the meaning :)

Here are more pics of members of Lions Club of PJ City.

Pouring paint..Lion Chin Hwa (OC) + Lion Kee Oi (President)

Lion Darren (In-Coming President) Regina ~ Lion Levin's Sister (Guest)

Bottom: Kee Oi, Chin Hwa, Levin

Touch Up...

3 guest ~~ duno their name...

Completed project :)

Lion Daniel

Beautiful people.. with beautiful hearts :)Unfortunately - my shoe broke... :(

Marie Digby LIVE in KL

2008-05-17T11:13:00.000+08:00

Many times we have creativity bouncing to us all of a sudden out of nowhere...
"I'm more creative after 6pm"... heard of that before?

In many ways, I agree to that sentence.. most of my ideas come bouncing off at odd hours of the day...Talking about odd hours of the day creativity...

The day before yesterday was the remarkable day where Marie Digby - the U-Tube Idol live in KL ~~
Creativity in odd hours of the day by recording video with guitar & grey sweatshirt - result : FAMOUS sponsored by GAP in KL with fans

Seriously, when you see sooo much crowd - getting into a good spot is needed.
thinking.. thinking.. thinking... result: Crazy U-Tubers .. still NOT anywhere near the stage :(

Some passer by commented "damn.. this is what you get for being short"
They should come out with first 3 rows.. height limit >150cm - next 3 rows : 150cm - 160cm...

Can you imagine that this applied to ALL events? (contributed by Alicia Phang)
Imagine that when you're at the counter buying ticket..
"May I please know your height?"
"err.. 165cm?"
"You would have to be in Row C"
"I'm also going with my bf... he's 173cm"
"Sorry he belongs to Row D"
">.<"

Overall, Marie Digby's show was good ~~ people turned up and although it was like hot sauna and people bonded for lifetime due to exchanging sweats.. *eye rolled* I had my hand raised to record her first performance... a bit tiring.. sorry .. for some parts that was like earth quake... coz some ppl pushing pushing ~~~

I wonder when is it my turn where I'm on stage.. and I have a crazy crowd for me ?
see? creativity thinking ;p Enjoy a long weekend ~

no expectation vs disappointment

2008-05-12T11:39:00.000+08:00

Have you ever been caught in a situation where you found yourself disappointed at something.... and just as when you could find the reason to blame... it was yourself?

Through experiences, I’ve started to have this theory about the correlation between expectation & disappointment.

Cherry is sad. She’s frustrated at this colleague of hers that just wouldn’t listen to her opinion and she’s having her PMS.
Double Trouble!

Cherry looked at the clock it’s 5 more minutes.. til 6pm! I SOOO need to get out of this office!...

At 6pm sharp, she leaves the office... and walk towards the car, as she walks – she finds herself scrolling down the phonebook of her phone to BABY.

She ask herself should I call him? ... mm.. Maybe he’s busy now... then she told herself well, if he really loves me... he would know how I feel now and he would call me after his work to ask how was my day.. then I can pour out my sorrows. Great plan!

Soon enough... 7pm pass by so fast... Cherry looks at her phone again... Network is working alright...

The phone rang... Cherry was so happy and quickly answered her phone... Hi babes! What you doing tonight?... It wasn’t BABY – It was her best friend – Kelly. Feeling a bit disappointed... Cherry answered nothing much... just nothing..

After dinner... she looked at the time again ... it’s 8.30pm ... Is he going to call? Why doesn’t he call or SMS?

The thing about this situation is that it’s so common for all of us – whether it’s baby... or hubby or darling or sweetie...

So, what if we don’t have expectation of the other party at all? Would we be happier? We get so excited when he/she does something when we not least expected...

BUT, are we suppose to have expectation at all?

John Legend - Someday

2008-05-11T02:24:00.001+08:00

Just finished watching this movie ~ wow.. simply beautiful movie - and the lyrics are fantastic!

http://www.stlyrics.com/lyrics/augustrush/someday.htm
...
we’ll get older we’ll get over
we’ll live to see the day that I hope for
come back to me
I still believe that
we’ll get it right again
we’ll come back to life again
we won’t say another goodbye again
you’ll live forever with me
someday, someday
we’ll be together
someday, someday
...

twitched your heart

2008-05-10T02:18:00.000+08:00

Well just finished watching the movie - What Happens in Vegas?

It was a fantastic movie... and there's so many parts that was generalizing how woman would react.... at the same time - i couldn't agree more ^_^

So I came up with 10 things that would twitched Ladies heart ~~ so boyz.. learn up!

@ no. 10..
He made a great impression to your boss during your company dinner

@ no. 9..
He surprise you home with your favorite home cooked meal with candles & your favorite songs & favorite wine.

@ no. 8..
He pretends not to listen to you while you talk about that dress you loved... then on your birthday - when you open the box.... it was that very dress in the right size.

@ no.7..
When you see your mom laughing with him...

@ no. 6..
He tells you that he's not showing up for your friend's gathering... and he showed up just when you look around - and everyone has a date... and he stops you from feeling lonely..

@ no. 5..
In cinema... it was the moment that you need re-assurance.... he leans over and gives you a kiss on your head...

@ no. 4..
The moment where you find urself smiling looking at him playing with kids...

@ no. 3..
He did something wrong.. and he walks over to you with 3 stalks of roses (without wrapping) and apologize... "Can I hug you?"... *heart melts*.... then to top it all - he whispers into your ear "Baby - I love you... a ... lottt..."

@ no. 2..
You came home tired like crazy... he warms up your clean towel & decorated the bathroom with your favorite scented candles.

@ no. 1..
While watching a beautiful scenery ... he hugs you from behind...

The trick is - never do them everyday :)

Don't Worry Be Happy Bobby Mc Ferrin [ smile ]

2008-05-07T17:59:00.001+08:00

Babes... this is soley dedicated to you!!!

my little manja 2

2008-05-05T15:58:00.000+08:00

Well.. recently - we had a hippie on KL FREEZE - While I took a stroll in KL Bird Park - for the upcoming Charity Event - I thought this was cute :)

Previously, I mentioned how I got this little cuttie :)

You know what they say about Pets ~ they know their owner's feelings... somehow

Did some photo shoot with Chai Chai... whenever I don't feel good ~ he's there to cheer me up :)

I hope he did a good job in cheering you up..

I LOVE YOU chai chai... :)

Thanks for cheering me up as usual...

Mario Theme Played with RC Car and Bottles

2008-05-02T01:04:00.001+08:00

damn cute ~ today i feel like a super mario coz i went for jogging + yoga.... feeling superb~~

wiki rox!

2008-04-28T13:23:00.000+08:00

I am trully amazed at what we can find in wiki..

Casual relationship (FUBU)

Ah Beng
From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Ah Beng is a term commonly given to a member of a group of young Chinese men in Southeast Asia, particularly Singapore and Malaysia. These Chinese men, whose age ranging from their early teens to late 20s, usually centralise in the busier and more developed cities in the region, but are usually seen as originating from smaller or more rural towns. Ah bengs typically speak local slang, which is Hokkien or Cantonese mixed with English and Malay, such as Manglish or Singlish. They are often stereotypically portrayed to be anti-intellectual, superficial and materialistic and shallow. These values often lead to a lack of culture or indulgence in criminal activity or being involved in brawling or arguing out of disagreements with other people. Ah bengs are also sometimes associated with extensively-modified or zhng-ed cars, [1] and are stereotypically seen as being excessively flashy and show-offs. Ah Beng commonly are seen in gaudy patterned shirts, loafers without socks, gold jade rings and gold often counterfeit Rolexes .
The term 'Ah Beng' is also sometimes used to describe young Chinese men in Southeast Asia who cannot speak fluent English and/or have graduated from the secular Chinese education system of the region.
In Malaysia, the term 'Ah Beng' usually refers to males who have unusual styles and tastes. And the term 'lala-zai' refers to males involved in stereotypical gangster activity or fashion such as the dyeing of hair.

hmm.. am i lala-lui?

Can't decide on my hair.... Black? Long? Curly? Short? Brown?

ok.. as long as i not lala-lui right...

pressure = rain = against the flow..

2008-04-27T07:54:00.000+08:00

Ok Ok. Everything will be okay.

That's the beginning of the chapters of very famous - Sophie Kinsella's series. My very first series book that I have all the collection :) and actually reading them.

I've read all already - now I'm back at the book of the sister :)

I think about meeting my Luke Brandon. Every gal have their fantasy dude.. I have a confession to make...

Long distance isn't easy ... Yes. yes. i know some of you would be shouting there "SEE? I told you so!" Firstly, I salute to all of you who are in long distance... wow!

Ok. Pressure? Yes. It's not exactly the simple thing "I love you"... what i'm building is a foundation - to be quite honest... I've not even held his hands @_@... (a lot of you would go "OHhh ohh~~") What I'm trying to say is that... maybe things would be different if we were next to each other... as much as the emotional / mental chemistry that we have.. Physical chemistry needs to be part of it. I guess these tough times are just bumps in every single relationship - well.. Jolene Loh - Buckle up! There would be more bumps than ever... (hello? 77 more days only)

You maybe laughing reading this... or saying "WHAT THE HELL IS SHE TALKING ABOUT?" or.. no time... this is tooo deep. THAT's how i feel... funny, confused, too deep in thought... is this what they say about love? mmm...... suddenly remembered what my fortune teller said "Go with the flow ~~ You always try to swim against the current all the time - that's why you find life HARD!"

Was reading my old blog entries... i find myself amazed with what i wrote.. haha guess this is the motto of the week "sunshine will come after the rain!"... go with the flow ~~~

Official Jason Mraz - I'm Yours video

2008-04-26T21:24:00.001+08:00

This is my favorite song ... ahhh.. BALI~~~ 79 more days... i can't wait ^_^

I'm an addict!

2008-04-20T23:18:00.000+08:00

I'll talk a little bit about addiction today.

We all love wiki for a reason : the Unified view or a good reference when we need some definition... (that's addiction too)

Addiction was a term used to describe a devotion, attachment, dedication, inclination, etc. Nowadays, however, the term addiction is used to describe a recurring compulsion by an individual to engage in some specific activity, despite harmful consequences to the individual's health, mental state or social life.

I often get this "Do you smoke?"... some people even offered me ~ here u go.. and seeing their eyes grow big when i said "I Don't smoke" is quite funny~ I have friends who are addicted to smoking until they have collection... So is this a bad addiction?

Was having breakfast with momz this morning - Coffee was her addiction she mentioned shyly.. She said something about it's all about mentality - one of my aunt is addicted to these pills she takes to avoid car-sick. But when my mom sat with her and kept her occupied - she kinda forgot to take the pill @_@

Last week, Rudy & JJ went missing.. duno what happened - somehow.. it was like a week without his trademark laugh... Am I addicted?

So I wonder... is there such thing as bad addiction? is there such thing as good addiction?

Guess what I'm addicted to... I'm addicted to Mr. J's voice... Called him 4 times yesterday ^_^

Circle of Trust

2008-04-19T11:04:00.000+08:00

Who's Jolene's Close Friends...

Best Best Fwen: He knows EVERYTHING about me.

Jarett Teo

Animal Group: We know each other for 10 years... or 11? 12? i lost count...

(From right) Bernard (aka Monkey) & Sue Ling

The guy i picked up when i was 15: Alan Wong

New found GF: best for MB session :)Alicia Phang

"chee-mui" or galfriends for life: School mates ~ Suxin & Sheena

Charity club - Lions Club of PJ City:From Bottom-Left (Darren, ME, Daniel, Gloria, Christine, Sharon, Hwa, Kee Oi, Kievan, Kelvin & Wife)

Drinking Buddies:

Rishy & Xu-Zonne

Sunday hang out buddy:
My lovely brother ~ Jowin

Sleeping partner:

Chai Chai

Word selection

2008-04-16T13:34:00.000+08:00

The wonders of word selection...

Like i previously mentioned... I now attend a part time interest, during class ... lecturer drew three lumps...

"What do you guys think this means?"

A lot of us laughed... "Cowboy hat, Mountains, Bird-eye view of Elephant, Banana, etc"
None of us said what we laughed about...

He started to say that in many cases, our brain would consider other influences - Environment, Circumstances, People... and we tend to choose what we would "re-word" what is appropriate.

On the other side of the world, we have people who would just say anything at all... without thinking. Some people even loves to speak down to other people just to make themselves feel good. Some even to the extend just to piss someone off...

Words are just words, it can be a powerful tool how we use it. - Jolene Loh

resolution

2008-04-15T15:00:00.000+08:00

You stare at the blank wall, your heart aches, you walking blindly - dunno where you're heading to... you just want to walk up to the special person in your life... and get that special hug.. and hope to hear "Everything will be okay"...

Professionally... top 10 do's and don'ts of depression

Don'ts
1. Don't try to manage it on your own. Ever.
2. Don't isolate yourself. (Doing so guarantees a bad case of "stinkin' thinkin'!")
3. Don't assume it's just your life's circumstances. (It can easily be a chemical imbalance in your brain combined with circumstances.)
4. Don't listen to angry, dark, upsetting, unsettling music. Ever. (It is counter-productive. It feeds depression... feeds it all those things that are not healthy for you: angst, anxiety, fear, anger, rage, melencholy...)
5. Don't eat unhealthy. Ever. (Unhealthy, a.k.a. junk food, fast food, prepackaged food.)

Do's
6. Do seek out "good friends". (The internet is not a replacement for some good old face-to-face with a close friend, compadre, or loving significant other.) Don't create MORE problems for yourself by chosing someone who feeds the monster.)
7. Do seek (professional) help if you're DWD and it's obviously more than just the occassional "blues".
8. Eat healthier! (More greens. Less burgers and fries. Healthier body, healthier mind.)
9. Listen to instrumental music with upbeat tempo and rhythm.
10. Watch a lot of comedy. Belly laugh! (Laughter really is the best medicine.)

Jolene's Top 3 resolution:
1. Don't think of food as sex.
2. Don't resort to alcohol or drugs.
3. Do take Tiramisu. (Think happy food) or strawberry or chawan-mushi or salmon~~ yumz ^__^

Worry is a misuse of imagination - that is soooo true... my word of the month!

Mr. J - Happy 2monthisary~

Baby Festival

2008-04-14T03:52:00.000+08:00

it's Baby festival ~~ recently - NEW BORN was in my journey this week!

Went to KL Bird Park recently - coz of one of my Upcoming Charity Event - BIRD QUEST FAMILY HUNT 2008 (if you are interested to contribute in any ways - let me know!)

Anyways... in KL Bird Park - was planning some treasure hunt - and saw the "NURSERY" awww...

keke.. did you notice one chic was looking at the camera? cute huh?

On March 23, 2008 - our youngest member in our club joined us ~ Welcome "Ming Xuan"!

That night I drove with this question "Would you rather be the father or the mother?"

Rishy said "Father ... for obvious physical reasons" @_@?

Then attended my mom's good friend's Grandson's Baptism -- Cute Francis (son of Little Kev)

Yup. They didn't bathe the whole baby - and being me (Short Term Memory) - I forgot to ask whether the water was warm or not... my bad..

Check out his cake~~ aweesome - it has a hand-made crown & baby boots!

Don't ask me why I have this entry --- AND NO.. I'm not pregnant!

my little manja

2008-04-11T11:05:00.000+08:00

Funny that I've never blogged about my cat ~

Grab your pillow, and I'll tell you the story.

3 years ago...it was almost Christmas, that I've suddenly made my mind about ADOPTING a cat. We all know the CONSTANT radio ads of SPCA did affect some people (ME).

Driving with full excitement and guilt (coz mumz didn't agree) to SPCA, it was something that I told myself to do before my trip. Was there "window shopping"... and there and then.. I saw this cage with 3 kittens "awwwww"...

"Tu kitten comel ke?"
"Yes yes.. very cute"
"Well.. let me open the cage for u"

Soon enof.. 1 super hyper active spring out... *no.. too hyper*
White one came walking out.. like super model... *mmm female...*
1 came out straight to my leg... and start manja-ing *heart-melt!!*

I fell in love with him immediately ~~ wanted to take him home - but I still need to "discuss" with mumz...

"Just to let you know... these cages are to be put to sleep tomorrow.. we are running out of spaces..."
"WHAT? you mean.. omgg..." *speechless.. heart beat went up*
"but.. i have a holiday trip to go... can I pick him up like next week?"
"Unfortunately, you have to take him with you today..."
*gulp*

thanks to my beautiful eyes .... my momz agreed... she loves him so much now... hehe
Until today... he's still doing the Manja-ing at my leg whenever I come home...

Lazy = RM800

2008-04-10T12:12:00.000+08:00

Congratulations Jolene!! You won RM800!!

What am I gonna do with RM800?

1) RM800 cash savings
2) Celine Dion Concert (RM288 x 2 (me & mom) + RM200 Purchase her limited edition goods)
3) Looking fabulous with 1 week of new clothes ~ (RM100++ x 7 days)
4) Jagoya Buffet Dinner with Family (RM110 x 5)
5) 2 months meal (RM10 x 60days)
6) Buy the bag that I loved in Singapore (RM200 x 4 different colors)
7) Expensive Bikini - for Bali trip~
8) Seafood....
9) Jap Food....

From Maxis : Your total call charges of RM726.09 exceeds 80perc of Cr Limit of RM900.00 Kindly remit payment to avoid service interruption. Call .....

I wish I won the RM800... but that's for me to realize that we cannot get lazy... I have to now resort to IDD Call Card... *ouch*

my part time interest

2008-04-05T21:25:00.000+08:00

I got a new found part time interest ~~ I've always wanted to do this!!

Driving along the Federal Highway... it's 1.29pm -- will I make it? It starts at 2pm!! Almost hit someone crossing the road *gulp* when I did a fast moving REVERSE to get the spot of car park!
OK Ok... I'm in the building ... 1.50pm ~~ good time for registration and proceed to class!

"How may I help you?"
"I'm here for the Part Time Graphic Design Course?"
"Ohh.. that's on our other building..."
*Oh shit.. where is tat?*
"Er.. do you know where? Just next to Courts ~~ above Victoria Station"
"okay.. thanks!!!" *runs*

PJCAD~ is where I would be spending the rest of my Saturdays for the next 3 months! Yes. I'm taking up Graphic Design. Always wanted to.. and when you finally get to do something that you want ~ let me tell you this - IT FEELS GOOD! :)

In the coming up "episodes", you would see WHY i took up Graphic Design ~~ I'm gonna design a logo for "Strawberrymeowz" ~~

Check this out - one of the many things i learnt!

Notice there's an ARROW between "E" and "X"?

Welcome to Design World!

bJ song

2008-03-31T17:05:00.000+08:00

Recently, went Karaoke with friends... sometimes - u know how it is some song from Radio just get stuck to your brain for the whole entire day?

"Oh girls they want to have fun...Oh girls just want to have..."
So I checked up the Video ~ funny how we don't video our MTV like that anymore huh?

Talking about Oldies... ~ I found what I call "the bJ song"...

And now, the end is near;
And so I face the final curtain.
My friend, Ill say it clear,
Ill state my case, of which Im certain.

Ive lived a life thats full.
Ive traveled each and evry highway;
And more, much more than this,
I did it my way.

Regrets, Ive had a few;
But then again, too few to mention.

...

Yes, there were times, Im sure you knew
When I bit off more than I could chew.
But through it all, when there was doubt,
I ate it up and spit it out.

I faced it all and I stood tall;
And did it my way.

...

For what is a man, what has he got?
If not himself, then he has naught.
To say the things he truly feels;

And not the words of one who kneels.
The record shows I took the blows -And did it my way!

Bet you would laugh too now that you listen to the song :) Try it

What if i don't like his smell?

2008-03-28T15:41:00.000+08:00

Seriously... I can’t take it anymore ~ Sometimes, you drive around town – and for a minute – you actually thought that you’re insane..

The guy riding the bike – he looks familiar... isn’t that him? I must be dreaming! *slap myself*... two love birds kissing in the car ~ awww... wouldn’t that be great? *imagine*... Guy crossing the road, wearing shorts & t-Shirt ... I think that’s his style of dressing... would he be a size M?... *stop it~~*

The guy ordering food, the guy crossing the road, the guy playing with kids, the guy holding his guitar, even the guy on American Idol now look like him... lol I can’t take that I’m thinking of him almost every 8 seconds... *embarrassed*

You know how it is – that your brain has a built in debate system for every single thought? Silly questions will pop in ~ “What if you don’t like his smell?” @__@

But you know what, Mr. J? - 108 more days~~ i can't wait :)